The Phoenix Forever Rises

Finally...

2005-07-03T14:59:00.001-05:00

It just happened. I don't know how. This journal is being shut down. I will now be writing on livejournal. Disturbing this is...

Preston out for the last time here

I'm Leaving...

2005-06-25T05:00:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm getting ready to leave again. This sucks big time because I really want to stay here with you guys. Don't be strangers while I'm away. I'll look forward to seeing you as soon as I get back (some of you more than others). I hope you guys have a good week.

Preston out

2005-06-25T04:11:00.000-05:00

Trip

I'm Back!!!

2005-06-20T18:38:00.000-05:00

That's right ladies and gentlemen I am back from my long and hot but very fun trip. Let's see where to begin in telling you about it.

We drove to Florida and spent two days there at the beautiful Cocoa Beach. We went to NASA at Cape Canaveral. That was pretty cool to see all of the space ships and such. We got on the ship and it was just beautiful. The ocean was beautiful too. Such a great color of blue. The food, which was incredible was served by our waiter Juan who was incredible. The shows on the ship were awesome too.

I met a lot of people on the boat. One, however, stands out as my favorite. Kylie is her name and boy is she beautiful too. I'm not going to get into detail about her...

So I'm back today. I've thought about a lot while I was gone. I'm not here fore very long. I return on the 24th and leave at 0500 the next morning. I hope that you all didn't have too much fun without me.

I see that nobody did as I requested. Perhaps you will take a shot at it this time.

Preston out

D-Day...

2005-06-13T08:00:00.000-05:00

So this is it...

Well don't get all mushy on me you guys I'm only leaving for a few days and I'll be reachable for that time.

I know it'll be tough and I'll miss you guys too.

I don't really know how you're going to function without me.

No I don't know where you put the lotion.

I dunno take my mom out somewhere nice while I'm gone.

That's just too much info.

No you can't have my stuff if I die or something.

lol

See you all back state side.

Preston out for a while

Vaca...

2005-06-12T19:28:00.000-05:00

So tomorrow is D-day and 0800 is H-Hour. This is where I am going for vacation. I shall be gone for ten days. I will be able to be talked to for a few of those day so give me a ring if you're thinking about me and I may just pick up. I will NOT answer my phone while I am on the boat due to the fact of that whole ocean thing. I'm sure to have fun. You guys should do something fun too but not too much fun lol. I'll be back on the 23rd and back in Mishawaka the 24th. Then I leave again for Virginia for another week. I hope to see you guys on that less than 24 hours day that I'm home.

I finished the first part of the story but I am not going to post any of it right now. I need to revise it a little and make sure everything is all right and how I want it to be. Plus I'm upset with length so I have to figure out what to do with that. But while I'm away SERIOUS suggestions on the title would be much appreciated.

See you guys back state side.

Preston out

New...

2005-06-12T13:14:00.000-05:00

After a period of thinking and meditation I have come to the conclusion that liking her was bound to go no where and is probably a ridiculous notion.

I think I like somebody else but I am not sure. It is probably just as ridiculous to like this person as it was the other. I dunno...

Preston out

Missing...

2005-06-11T23:06:00.000-05:00

The longer I'm away from you guys the more I miss you. The feelings that flow through my blood right now are difficult to put into words that's for sure. I just miss you, that's all.

I wish that I could find happiness again. I guess I just have to know that there is a girl out there somewhere that likes me and wants to be with me and that we can be happy together.

Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and marsI

n other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

Preston out

I'm sorry...

2005-06-07T17:34:00.000-05:00

This is going to have to hold you guys over until the product is finished which will be sometime in July. These are the next seven pages I believe. Again I am sorry. I thank each of you for reading and your comments accordingly. I hope that you enjoy.

INT. DON’S MANSION
Placido, Salvatore, and Amadora walk down the hall. Amadora stops in a room.

AMADORA

Well, are you not going to open the door for me?

Salvatore reaches for the door.

SALVATORE

Yes, let me get that.

The door opens. Salvatore goes to step in.

AMADORA

What are you doing?

SALVATORE

Checking to see if there is anything wrong or dangerous. You know my job.

AMADORA

O. All right, I guess. Have a good night Placido. It was good seeing you.

Placido is starting to sweat again.

PLACIDO

Yes, you too.

Salvatore turns to Placido.

SALVATORE

You know what room we’re in. I will meet you there in a minute.

Placido starts to walk down the hall again. He moves more quickly. He finds the room and opens the door. He turns on the light and locks the door behind him. He sits on the bed. He gets out the black bag and sets it on the end table. He stumbles to take out the strap. He knocks the bag over and the bottle rolls underneath the bed. Placido ties the strap around his arm and puts the syringe in his mouth. He searches for the bottle underneath the bed. Then he grabs it. Then there is a knock at the door.

PLACIDO

Who is it?

Another knock as Placido anxiously fills the syringe. Placido answers angrily.

PLACIDO

Who is it?

A key is inserted into the lock. Placido is forced to abort. He takes the strap off and finds a trash can. He throws the equipment into the trash can just as the door opens.

PLACIDO

Can’t you see that I’m-

Placido stops and looks at the girl. Belle is standing in the doorway in a nightgown smiling at him. Belle gives Placido a hug.

BELLE

I am so glad to see you!

PLACIDO

As I am you!

Belle kisses Placido on the cheek.

BELLE

I heard that you were here and I just had to see you. I have missed you so much, Placido, you don’t even know. I have so much to tell you.

Belle starts walking towards the hall. Placido follows. Placido leans on the doorway.

PLACIDO

As I do you, Belle. Gosh, it’s been so long.

BELLE

Yes, but I am off to bed now. Would you like to eat breakfast with me in the morning?

PLACIDO

That would be great. I’d love to.

Salvatore walks down the hall towards the two of them.

BELLE

Great, I’ll be looking forward to it. You have a good night’s sleep. We’ve certainly missed you around here.

PLACIDO

Have a good night too. It'll be fun to catch up.

Belle walks away as Salvatore walks up.

SALVATORE

What was that?

PLACIDO

Nothing. Let’s get some sleep.

SALVATORE

Amen.

The two go back into the room.

INT. PLACIDO AND SALVATORE’S ROOM

Placido wakes up. The covers are all over the place. The shades have already been opened. He wakes up groggily. He goes into the bathroom. He takes off his clothes and showers. When he gets out he starts to dry himself. Then he looks into the mirror. He runs to the trash can. He digs out the equipment. The bottle and syringe are broken. Placido gets upset and throws them back into the can. Placido continues to dry himself. Then he throws a towel around his waist, picks up the telephone, and dials.

PLACIDO

Yes, I need some more merchandise.

HELEN

What happened to what I just sold you?

PLACIDO

I had an accident.

HELEN

Are you good for the money?

PLACIDO

Of course I am good for the money but I need some today.

HELEN

Placido, you know that I do not like doing this. You need to get help.

PLACIDO

Just help me out by meeting me today in the market.

HELEN

Fine. Just have the money.

Placido hangs up the phone. He gets dressed in loose fitting attire.

INT. SUN ROOM

Placido walks into the sun room. Belle, Salvatore, and Amadora are already seated.

BELLE

I was beginning to think that you were never coming.

PLACIDO

Please excuse me for being late. I had to take care of some business.

Placido kisses Belle’s hand.

AMADORA

You are quite excused.

Placido stands up straight.

PLACIDO

What are we having for breakfast this morning?

BELLE

The help cooked bacon and eggs.

PLACIDO

My favorite.

BELLE

Yes, I know that is why I had them make it.

Placido smiles at Belle and she smiles back. Placido grabs a plate and fills it. He sits down next to Belle and begins to eat.

PLACIDO

So tell me what’s new?

BELLE

Well…

Jaden walks in.

JADEN

Good morning babe.

Belle stands and kisses him on the lips. Placido looks disappointed.

BELLE

Jaden, you remember Placido, right?

JADEN

How could I forget? How have you been?

Placido stands. Jaden holds out his hand. Placido shakes it.

PLACIDO

All is well I suppose. Thank you.

JADEN

Good.

Belle hugs him and looks at Placido.

BELLE

I wanted to tell you that Jaden and I are getting married.

PLACIDO

Well, congratulations. That is....good news. Great news. Probably the best that I have heard since I have arrived.

BELLE

Thank you.

Salvatore stands up sensing the tension.

SALVATORE

I think it is time that we must be going. Amadora wants to visit the market place this morning. I told her we could.

PLACIDO

Yes, of course. If you will excuse me, Belle, I am sorry.

BELLE

Of course, you must do your duty to the family.

INT. CAR

Placido and Salvatore are causally driving in a new car down the street. The car is designed with a wall between the passengers in the back and the driver and passenger in the front.

SALVATORE

What was wrong with you?

PLACIDO

I have not seen Belle in a long time.

SALVATORE

Keep your wits about you, please. That was a lot time ago. It has come and gone

PLACIDO

Yes of course. Why didn't you tell me? How could this have happened?

SALVATORE

I didn't feel that it was important.

PLACIDO

I guess that I am happy that she has found the happiness that she deserves.

SALVATORE

Good.

Placido points to the left at a parking space.

PLACIDO

Park over there.

SALVATORE

Yes, I see it.

EXT. STREETS OF NEW YORK

The market place is busy. Salvatore and Placido get out of the car and look around. Salvatore goes around to Placido’s side of the car.

PLACIDO

Are you ready to do this?

SALVATORE

Let’s go.

Placido opens the door as Salvatore stands ready to help Amadora out of the car.

SALVATORE

Is there anything specific that you would like to buy?

AMADORA

I’m just here to shop.

SALVATORE

All right, you lead the way.

PLACIDO

I have to pick something up for the room. Do either of you mind that I leave?

SALVATORE

No, I do not mind. I believe that I have things under control here.

AMADORA

Nor do I mind. Get what you need.

PLACIDO

Thank you, my Lady. I will meet both of here back at the car.

Placido goes off his own way. He walks down an ally. Helen is waiting for him.

PLACIDO

Do you have it?

HELEN

No.

PLACIDO

Why not? I told you that I need it, Helen. I was counting on you. I cannot just quit cold turkey like this.

HELEN

I can’t get my hands on any product right now. That gang that’s rivaling you guys is killing my business.

PLACIDO

You mean Don Albina’s gang?

HELEN

That’s the one. Placido, I know that you can get it through your gang.

Placido starts to sweat profusely. He starts to get angry.

PLACIDO

I can’t. They cannot find out. If you wouldn’t have gotten me started in the first place! I’ve gotta have some more!

HELEN

Don’t shout. I have to go. We’ll be in contact. I’m sorry.

Helen runs away. Placido walks back towards the car. Amadora is standing there with Salvatore angrily.

PLACIDO

What happened?

SALVATORE

Amadora got mad at one of the store keepers for not letting her try on everything that she wanted to.

Placido opens the door of the car.

PLACIDO

O, I am sorry, my Lady. Would you like me have it taken care of it?

Amadora steps in with the help of Salvatore.

AMADORA

Yes!

Placido shuts the door.

SALVATORE

Did you get what you needed?

PLACIDO

No, they were out.

SALVATORE

That’s a shame.

Placido and Salvatore climb into the car and start riding away. A knock is heard on the wall and Placido lowers it.

AMADORA

I’ve gotta ask.

PLACIDO

No, you know we don’t-

AMADORA

Do either of you know who is trying to kill me?

PLACIDO

We are only here to protect you, Amadora, not to start asking questions, besides the person that ordered the hit could be miles from here by now.

SALVATORE

We are going to find who is trying to assassinate you. Whether it is this day or the next. It is just bound to happen.

Placido turns to Salvatore in disappointment.

PLACIDO

Those were not our orders from the Don.

SALVATORE

In order to protect Amadora we must find who is trying to kill her. And then we have to kill him. We can't let this injustice stand.

PLACIDO

Please, Salvatore, you must show some respect for the Family and for the Don.

SALVATORE

This is bull shit and you know it. I'm tired of this kind of work and everything that goes with it. We are too good for this.

PLACIDO

We will do what the Don has requested of us and nothing more. This is exactly why you have not become a capo. You have to learn your respect for the Don’s decisions. The Don would not be happy that you would disobey a direct order.

SALVATORE

What are you talking about? You left! You shouldn't even be here! I shouldn't be here! I should be a Capo!

AMADORA

Hopefully, just by you being here, something will arise. I am happy that you two are my protectors. God knows I couldn't defend myself.

There is an awkward silence.

AMADORA

I am really glad to see you back, Placido. Really I am.

PLACIDO

I am happy to be back. Really.

AMADORA

Were you happier being away?

PLACIDO

That is hard to say.

SALVATORE

Of course he wasn’t. He missed us. I can’t believe that he was gone for so long. He should have been back sooner.

PLACIDO

Yes, of course. There is no place that I’d rather be.

SALVATORE

So what do you feel about Agostino being underboss and Julian being Consigliore?

PLACIDO

I don’t know what to think about it really. I guess a lot has changed since I have left. I mean, Amadora, you’re a capo and Phebe is the Don? I never would have guessed.

AMADORA

Well, you are lucky to be alive. I would have killed you.

A car hits the driver’s side of the car hard. Everybody in the car shakes.

PLACIDO

Shit! Before this is over you may just get your wish. Amadora stay down and follow me.

Placido draws his gun and gets out of the car. Mobsters wearing masks get out of the car with submachine guns and start to fire. Placido gets out the car and shoots two of them in the head. There is one that remains. Placido turns to Amadora.

PLACIDO

Stay here, we’ll take care of this.

Amadora looks scared.

AMADORA

All right.

Salvatore and Placido start to run after the last man. They chase him through an alley and eventually see him go into a speakeasy.

That was fun. I hope you guys had a good time reading that. In the next few pages orders come from Agonstino and Julian to have Salvatore go with Amadora to Italy as Placido is sent to Egypt to find out exactly what is happening to the Family and who is responsible. It should be interesting.

Preston out

The First Fifteen...

2005-06-05T20:42:00.000-05:00

EXT. SKIES OVER NEW YORK

A plane breaks through the clouds. Inside, Placido is speaking to a fellow passenger as a flight attendant moves towards him. His forehead is sweating.

PLACIDO

And before everything got real messy, I left. So now I’m coming back, hopefully for good

The passenger looks at Placido funny.

PASSENGER

What’s wrong? You’re sweating. And why do you sound so unsure?

The flight attendant gets to Placido and waits.

PLACIDO

O. Sorry, it’s just really hot in here.

Placido wipes the sweat from his forehead. He looks to the floor and then back up.

PLACIDO

I left a lot behind. I should probably be dead. Excuse me.

Placido walks towards the rest room. He gets in and shuts the door. He takes a black case out of his pants pocket and opens it. There is a syringe, a bottle, and a rubber band. He pulls up his shirt sleeve and straps on the band. Then there’s a knock at the door. Placido sounds upset and preoccupied. Sweat is running down his face.

PLACIDO

Yes?!

FLIGHT ATTENDANT

Sir, there is a telephone call in the other part of the cabin.

Placido looks confused.

PLACIDO

For me?

FLIGHT ATTENDANT

Yes, sir. Would you like me to take a message?

PLACIDO

No, I’ll be right out.

Placido takes off the strap and puts everything back into the case. He washes his face off in the sink and comes out.

PLACIDO

Where at?

FLIGHT ATTENDANT

Yes, right this way.

Placido follows the flight attendant to the front of the cabin. She picks up the phone and hands it to him. Placido sits and then speaks into the phone.

PLACIDO

Hello?

SALVATORE

Hiya, Placido! How ya doin’?

PLACIDO

Salvatore, is that you? You old dog? I’m doing great. What about yourself?

SALVATORE

I am doing well. We’ll have plenty of time to reacquaint ourselves when your plane touches down. How are you feeling?

PLACIDO

Nervous.

SALVATORE

Why?

PLACIDO

Are you sure they even want me to come back? I didn’t really tell a lot of them that I was leaving.

SALVATORE

Don’t worry about it. I have already spoken with all of them myself. They are perfectly ok with it.

PLACIDO

Are you sure?

SALVATORE

Would I ever lie to you?

PLACIDO

I guess not.

SALVATORE

You guess?

PLACIDO

I know you wouldn’t.

The flight attendant comes to Placido. Placido turns to her.

FLIGHT ATTENDANT

Sir, you are going to need to end your conversation quickly. The captain is about to make his final approach.

Placido nods and turns back to the phone.

PLACIDO

Thank you. Salvatore, look, I’ll be on the ground in a few minutes. We’ll talk then.

SALVATORE

All right, it was good talking to you. There are some people I want you to see when you get here. Have fun. Bye.

PLACIDO

You too. Bye.

Placido walks back to his seat.

EXT. AIRPORT

Placido’s plane touches down smoothly. Salvatore is outside a car waiting for him. The door comes open as a flight attendant comes out first. A few people get out of the airplane. Then Placido gets out with a large bag, a jacket on, and a coat on his head. Salvatore waves at him. Placido waves back and walks over to Salvatore. Placido looks up to the sky as he stops in front of Salvatore.

PLACIDO

Mmmm…smell that air.

SALVATORE

What? The filth?

PLACIDO

Home, sweet, home…

SALVATORE

You got that right. You ready to go? Here I’ll take your bags and put them in the trunk.

Salvatore takes Placido’s bags and puts them in the trunk. A very large winged shape plane comes down from the sky. Placido walks away from the car to look at it. Eight fighters are escorting the plane upon this final approach.

PLACIDO

What is that?

Salvatore, done with putting the bags in the car, walks towards Placido.

SALVATORE

I meant to tell you about that... That is Amadora.

Placido looks shocked.

PLACIDO

Amadora?

SALVATORE

Yes, after you left she was a rising star. She’s made capodecina.

Salvatore walks towards the driver’s side of the car.

PLACIDO

Capo? Really? No shit.

They both get in.

SALVATORE

Yea.

PLACIDO

Haven’t you been trying to make capo even before I left?

Salvatore laughs.

SALVATORE

Yea, that’s true. It seems as if the administration is going to keep me like this forever. Don’t forget though, you never made capo either.

PLACIDO

I’m not forgetting.

PLACIDO

Do you want to go see her?

PLACIDO

That would be nice, I suppose.

SALVATORE

All right.

Salvatore starts the car and drives over to that side of the run way.

EXT. AMADORA’S PLANE

Amadora, in a nice dress, steps down from the airplane’s stairs with body guards around her. Amadora sees Salvatore. She waves her body guards off and walks quickly towards Salvatore. Placido stays in the car. Amadora does not see Placido and smiles at Salvatore.

AMADORA

Salvatore, how are you? It’s been so long.

Salvatore takes Amadora’s hand and kisses it. Placido gets out of the car.

PLACIDO

Salvatore, you old smoothie…

Amadora quickly pulls her hand away from Salvatore. She seems upset.

AMADORA

O. Placido, I did not know that you were here.

PLACIDO

I just got back.

Placido walks around the car to Amadora.

AMADORA

You haven’t changed a bit.

PLACIDO

Well, look at you, a capo, who would have guessed.

AMADORA

Yes, I just got back, as you can see. How long are you here for?

PLACIDO

Hopefully for good.

Amadora does not look happy about this.

AMADORA

Well, that is good news. This city truly has not been the same since you left so suddenly. I will be-

Amadora’s plane explodes. Salvatore ducks.

SALVATORE

Get down!

Three cars speed up and start shooting at the guards.

PLACIDO

We have to get outta here.

The shooting continues. The guards are shooting back but most are dying. Amadora looks scared.

AMADORA

What are we going to do?

SALVATORE

Get in the car!

They each get in the car. Amadora gets in the back. Salvatore starts the engine and speeds off. Placido turns around.

PLACIDO

Amadora, keep your head down and we’ll get outta this.

Amadora speaks wearily.

AMADORA

Uh huh.

The cars follow Salvatore’s. Salvatore makes a fast turn through the fence of the airport and onto the street into traffic. The cars are still speeding after them shooting.

SALVATORE

Placido!

PLACIDO

Yea!?

SALVATORE

You better still have that good shot! Under the seat there’s a gun. Give ‘em hell.

PLACIDO

My pleasure.

Placido reaches under the seat and pulls out a Colt .45. Placido sticks his body out of the window. Bullets are littering the car. Placido shoots the lead car's driver in two shots. The car swerves into another shooting at them and explodes. Placido comes back in.

PLACIDO

Hey, I got one!

SALVATORE

Yea, there’s still one more!

PLACIDO

Don’t worry about him. I'm all over it.

Placido goes out. He shoots three times and hits the right front tire. The car hits another and stops in the road. Placido comes in as Salvatore swerves right and does not slow down. All in the car are hyperventilating. Placido turns to Amadora.

PLACIDO

You can get up now, Senator.

AMADORA

Thanks, Placido.

PLACIDO

Anytime, don't worrya bout it.

SALVATORE

Hey, what about me?

AMADORA

You too. I will be sure the Don knows about this. This is ridiculous!

Placido turns to Salvatore.

PLACIDO

Just like the good old days, huh?

SALVATORE

I’m just glad that you haven’t missed a beat or we would have got it right on in the kisser.

PLACIDO

Yea, tell me about it.

Salvatore continues to drive quickly towards the white house.

EXT. FAMILY MANSION

Salvatore pulls up. He checks in with his bullet torn vehicle. The secret service stops his car.

GUARD

Destination and cargo?

SALVATORE

Passengers only. Myself, my friend, and Amadora. We are here to drop the capo off for her meeting with the Don.

The secret service looks in the car.

GUARD

What happened to your car?

SALVATORE

We had a little trouble back at the airport. You know, anything for frequent flyer miles.

Another man steps to the car.

GUARD 2

Let them in immediately. The Don is waiting for their arrival.

INT. DON’S OFFICE

The Don is speaking with captain’s Julian and Agostino.

AGOSTINO

If the other smaller gangs leave us-

PHEBE

I will not let that happen.

AGOSTINO

I am just afraid that if a war does break out between the clans that there will not be enough soldiers on the streets to successfully combat an insurrection of that magnitude.

PHEBE

Do you really think that it will come to a gang war, Julian?

JULIAN

It is difficult to say. There are so many people that are allying themselves with them. So much at stake anymore. The taxes on them are too much but we cannot survive without them. And the Feds do not help our cause.

PHEBE

I will not let that happen. Jesus, we just fought the last one reluctantly. This thing of ours cannot handle another.

Amadora walks into the room followed by other Capos. Placido and Salvatore walk in behind her. Phebe stands up and walks towards Amadora. Agostino and Julian stand to leave and talk to Amadora.

AGOSTINO

I am glad that my men could escort your here safely, Amadora. Were the extra guards we sent of good use?

AMADORA

Your men are dead, Agostino.

Agostino looks astonished.

AGOSTINO

What? That is impossible.

AMADORA

Yes, we were ambushed at the airport, all of your men and the pilots are dead.

Phebe walks over to the oval office windows.

AGOSTINO

Then how did you get here?

AMADORA

Luckily other members of your crew were there.

AGOSTINO

Who?

AMADORA

Placido and Salvatore.

Both of them step out from the corner.

AGOSTINO

Hmmm…

AMADORA

Do you have any idea to who is behind this attack?

AGOSTINO

It is far too uncertain to say.

AMADORA

I think it is the former captain, Albina. It only makes sense.

JULIAN

She did break Omertá. But she is not a murderer. She is lucky to be alive, Amadora. Let me assure you that it was not her.

AGOSTINO

And I think you forget. We were her friends once. It is not in her character to murder a friend.

Phebe steps forward.

PHEBE

She has started the rival gang…and she has been trying to take our members. But she has seemed to never really want to start a war. Why would she want to kill you?

AMADORA

I don’t know but everything in my body is telling me that she is behind this plot.

Phebe turns around.

PHEBE

In this moment of crisis perhaps it would be best to place the capo with some new guards...perhaps those with a little more experiense...

AMADORA

I do not think that this matter is nearly-

PHEBE

That dangerous but I do. Please, do it for me, capo. The loss of you would truly ensure that the next war would break out and nobody wants that. Perhaps old friends, like Salvatore and Placido.

Julian turns to Phebe.

JULIAN

That could easily be arranged. Salvatore is already here.

AGOSTINO

But Placido does not work for us anymore. He quit a year ago. It may not be the most appropriate...

Phebe turns to Agostino and Placido.

PHEBE

Placido, are you willing to be reinstated? You do know that one that breaks Omertá usually is a dead man. But since you have managed to keep your mouth shut…

PLACIDO

Well, I could use the job.

PHEBE

Good! Than it is settled. The both of you are now assigned to the protection of Amadora. Placido, it is good to see you back. We have missed you since you have been gone.

PLACIDO

Well, look at you, Don of the Family, who would have guessed.

PHEBE

Yes, good luck on your new assignment.

Phebe returns to her desk. Agostino turns to Salvatore and Placido.

AGOSTINO

As underboss, both of you are now assigned to the protection of the capo. Get the capo situated in her room in the mansion.

PLACIDO AND SALVATORE

Yes sir.

They just stand around.

AGOSTINO

Well, get a move on.

SALVATORE

Yes, right this way.

The three walk out of the room.

The Don Is...

2005-06-05T08:19:00.000-05:00

The head honcho of any organized crime Family is the Don. The Don is a revered position like the Pope or the President. The Don has the final say in all Family matters no matter what and can not be overruled.

I must say that the decision of who to make the Don was difficult. It took much diliberation on my part on who was in a leadership position at the time that these events took place. Even though the story is based in an alternative 1920s New York, the events are taken from March of 2005. By reading my journal for that month and the a couple weeks before and after it it should have been easy to see my decision.

The Don is...

There are two...

Albina

Albina is one of the only members of the New York Clan to ever leave and still be alive. Her current status is mysterious and unknown. She has been spotted in Europe and South America speaking with smaller gang leaders there. It is difficult to see her next move for she is just too unpredictable but it is even more unpredictable to see what the Don will do in light of this recent development.

Phebe

Don of the New York Family, Phebe is both wise and strong. She is a close friend to Amadora and a former friend of Albina. She has come through for the Family in the past and does not plan any different. She has been known to be manipulative in deals and have sudden rages but she can do that because she's the Don. She had to get here some how and even if you don't like it you probably shouldn't say it or you'll be a dead man.

I hope you enjoy. This will be followed by the first fifteen pages of the story. It is still unfinished and still does not have a title. I added a couple lines to Amadora and Placido so be sure to check those out.

Preston out

Some More...Some More...

2005-06-04T10:38:00.000-05:00

I will admit that these three characters have the most speaking lines out of the whole deal.

Salvatore

As a soldier for the Family he carries out their work with other soldiers. Eager to become a Capo he strives hard to do what is right for the Family even though there are times when the Administration don't care. Even though he is a close friend and confidant with the Don the books are closed at the time being with the making of a new Capo which prevents him from having his own crew.

Amadora

Having always been involved deeply with the Family business, Amadora was a perfect choice for the new Capo in the Family to fill the vacancy and close the books. However with the looming storm over the Family she also makes a perfect target for an assassination to through the Family's busniesses and practices out of whack (no pun intended). She trusts very few with good reason.

Placido

Former member of the Family, Placido left for reasons that are still unknown. He is returning out of good faith for his friend Salvatore who has welcomed him back with open arms. He has never been a Capo but has always tried to do the right thing for the Family. His loyalties may be questionable but they always lie with the Family. Though he tries to do what is right he is not without flaw; he is addicted to heroine.

Well that's it for now.

Preston out

Some More...

2005-06-04T00:58:00.000-05:00

Here are some more.

Julian

Julian has been in the New York Clan as long as any member, even the Don. As consigliore he puts in his legal sense into every decision made in the Family. Together he works with the underboss making most of the decisions for the Family as to not both the Don.

Agostino

Working with the consigliore as underboss, is in charge of virtually every decision that does not go in front of the Don. Though a higher rank, he consults the expertise of Julian.

Have fun with those.

Preston out

Ps. I had a lot of fun tonight at the poker thing at Paige's. I mean this with the utmost sincerity that I am sorry. I am sorry especially to Paige for causing a scene in front of Darrin knowing that we should have been on our best behavior. The rules should have been more defined and it just wasn't fair. I'm done talking about it other than that I just wanted to let you guys know that I am sorry but I did have a lot of fun and that I hope you did too. Paige, I thank you for letting us come over. -PJ

Pps. Sorry Pat for that whole thing tonight afterwards. Like I feel bad now and such because of it. Though it hurt that you said I was a shitty poker player, I shouldn't have questioned our friendship or whatever. I'm really sorry. -PJ

One More Day...

2005-06-03T20:09:00.000-05:00

Today was really really good. I did well on each final so I'm really not upset. That's about all that I have to say about today.

I went out to eat with my family to TGI Friday's today and they told them that it was my birthday. They made me stand on a chair as they sung to me and made me fish the cherry out of my sundae with no hands. It was embarassing.

I am looking forward to this poker thing tonight and the movie tomorrow night. Between the two of them it should be really really fun.

Here's another set of character descriptions for you all while I try to finish.

Jaden

Being a religious guru, Jaden does not take part in Family affairs. The Don keeps him around because he does little harm and has been an active member of the Family in the past.

Belle

Being engaged to Jaden, Belle uses her religion has a sanctuary to stay out of Family matters as well, though she never really has been involved. The Don has granted her amnesty only out of the kindness of the Don's heart.

And those are all of the minor characters. I hope you enjoy. Two of the bigger characters will be described tomorrow. The Don will be last.

Preston out

More...

2005-06-03T07:01:00.000-05:00

Here's another set of character descriptions for you all while I try to finish.

Ruggerio

As an Ex-green beret member, Ruggerio's ties are really unknown with the Family.

Helen

Known herione dealer, Helen's ties are unknown as well.

Hope you enjoy.

Preston out

BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-06-02T18:13:00.000-05:00

Today was my birthday for all of you who are unaware and/or stupid. I am not going to point any fingers but you know who you are all that claim to be a true friend but I'll forgive you.

School was good today. My Calculus final really wasn't as hard as I thought it would be but I probably failed it too so that's not saying much. German, US History, and Biology were a joke as expected so no disappointment there.

For my story, since it is not going to be done soon I have decided to give character descriptions. There is no particular order but the less featured characters are first.

Dante

Dante is a Italian restuarant chain in New York City. He is an associate of the family. Dante owes the family for something that they did for him previously but is unknown. Supplies the family with information.

Nexeu

As a Jew, he is in charge of Family activities in Egypt. Not much is known that goes on in Egypt not even the Don knows exactly what happens there.

Those are the two characters for today. I hope that you each have a good day.

Preston out

As Things Roll To A Stop...

2005-05-31T21:18:00.000-05:00

As school begins to wind down I start to think about a lot. I start to think about what this summer holds for myself and others. I begin to think about where I am going to spend the summer. I begin to think what this last year of schooling has in store for all of us. How much harder could it actually be? Where am I going to go to college? Why am I going to do that? Why don't I do something else? There are so many questions and so few answer.

As it is May 31, the last day of the month, I was unable to complete the story on the deadline I thought I might do to the fact that school is gay.

Her. Just her. Like I don't even know what to say about her. I know that I want to be with her. I know that my chances are slim. I wonder if she knows. Probably. There are a few that do know and are hopefully keeping their mouths shut.

That's all for now.

Preston out

Yesterday...

2005-05-28T21:21:00.000-05:00

Yesterday at school sucked. Like there was nothing good about it at all. Last night was a different story. Last night was great. I feel bad for Andy because of his knee and I tried to do everything that I could do to help him. Allison's party was lots of fun. I am glad that I decided to go. Spending the night at Andy's was really really fun because...well it's Andy and Spencer and they're just cool kids.

I'm sorry that my entries have been crappy lately but I've had a ton to do. Entries will be more lengthy after school gets out.

Preston out

Survey...again...

2005-05-27T09:10:00.000-05:00

You Will Die at Age 79

79

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Survey...

2005-05-26T22:36:00.000-05:00

C u r r e n t
001. time? 2221
002. date? 5/26/05
003. jewelry? necklace, always
004. clothes? pjs
005. taste? orange juice
006. sound? a really really good song
007. crush? there are some that know who it is...
008. best friend? I have a lot of good friend, to pick one would be too hard
009. emotion? tired/exhausted
010. thing in sight? monitor

G e n e r a l I n f o r m a t o n
011. name? Patillo, Preston J
012. nickname? PJ, Presty, Niner, Aged P, and more
013. birthday? June 2nd
014. sex? Male
015. location? Mishawaka/Ft. Wayne
016. grade? Senior
017. school? MHS
018. jobs? don't have a real one
019. siblings? too many to name here
020. pets? Goliath and Norbert

T h e L a s t
021. movie you saw? Episode III
022. movie you rented? White Castle
023. song you listened to? Somewhere Over The Rainbow just ran through my playlist
024. person you talked to? Allison
025. person you called? Spencer
026. person that called you? Allison
027. person you IMed? Spencer
028. person that sent you a text message? Looks like Patti again
029. thing you wrote? My story stuff
030. thing you read? this

F r i e n d s
031. best? we've been here
032. funniest? a lot are funny, Amber can be retarded, but Spencer and Paige have good come backs and jokes
033. trustworthy? I trust some but not nearly all and most only to a certain extent
034. advice? Sev
035. loudest? LT
036. quietest? david or kevin
037. most athletic? barbie
038. most girly? paige for sure
039. smartest? We can all out smart each other at times
040. fallen for? again, i know who it is but you don't

C u r r e n t B u d d y L i s t
041. total people? 68
042. total people online? 10
043. away messages up? 1
044. people on cell phones? 0
045. screen names you have? 1

H a v e Y o u E v e r
046. kissed someone? Yes
047. kissed a stranger? no
048. snuck out at night? no
049. run away? no
050. cursed at mom/dad? not on purpose
051. gone to church? yes
052. lied to someone you love? I really can't remember
053. masturbated? lol I'm taking the 5th
054. played spin the bottle? yes
055. gone skinny dipping? actually....
056. showered? every day
057. been to a funeral? unfortunately yes
058. been to a bar/bat mitzvah? yes
059. seen an R rated movie? of course
060. had sex? no

D o Y o u
061. drink? no
062. smoke or do drugs? of coures not
063. have gay friends? none that I know of
064. have lesbian friends? yes
065. have bisexual friends? the chances are high

E i t h e r O r
066. hot or cold? cold
067. white or black? black
068. spring or fall? spring
069. looks or personality? combination of both
070. sunrise or sunset? sunrise
071. smart or stupid? smart
072. video or dvd? dvd
073. tape or cd? cd
074. jock, prep, or skater? none of those
075. serious or sarcastic? both when the time is right

F u t u r e
076. college? I'm retarded so I'm lucky to go
077. career? law
078. place of marriage? I have a grand image of my marriage that probably will never happen
079. wife? yes
080. number of children? two-three
081. two girls names? Alexis
082. two boys names? Preston or something else but I can't remember
083. car? Lamborghini
084. house? estate/ White House
085. place to live? Washington

F a v o r i t e
086. movie? Difficult to say; depends on genre but usually A Beautiful Mind
087. actor? Kiefer Sutherland
088. actress? Keira Knightley
089. food? chinese
090. drink? grape juice
091. alcoholic drink? none
092. tv show? 24, The Shield, Nip/Tuck, and The West Wing
093. tv channel? Fox News/ The History Channel
094. number? 65
095. song? don't really have one, depends on my mood
096. band? don't have one
097. artist? don't have one
098. color? black
099. thing to do? write

100. current time? 10:36pm

Quiz...

2005-05-25T22:08:00.000-05:00

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENTP

The Visionary

You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.
You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.
Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.
You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.

You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #3 Match: ENFJ

The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #4 Match: INFP

The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #5 Match: ENTJ

The Executive

You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.
Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.
Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.
You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.

You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

What's Your Personality Type?

Preston out

Fast Food. High Times.

2005-05-24T23:32:00.000-05:00

Nothing is sweeter than a half day in the form of a maroon day. It has to be the best action ever. I can't say a whole lot happened at school today. I remember that Paige had an episode or two in Biology. That was probably the best part of the school day.

After school Spencer and I locked Paige out of her car and then Spencer took the keys. After that we went to Andy's. From there Andy, Spencer, Kevin, and I went to Macri's or w/e and ate. That was pretty good. Then we went to Kevin's and watched this movie:

It was pretty funny. Before that Andy tried to beat me up cause I harassed him in the car on the way back to Kevin's house. After that we tried to get Amber to do something with us like she said she would but obviously lied. Then we went to Wal-Mart and Krispy Kreme with Izzy and that was pretty fun. And then I came home and did nothing.

I don't understand why I am meant to be unhappy. What am I paying for? Will I ever find happiness again? Why is she so difficult? Does she even sort of feel the same way I do? I have too many questions that'll never get answers.

Preston out

Three Heroes. One Enemy. All Action.

2005-05-23T21:10:00.000-05:00

This week is going to be very, very busy. At least the English project was moved to Tuesday instead of Friday. I still have three tests on Friday (German, History, and Calc). That's terrible. I'm going to fail that Calc final, it won't even be funny. What is funny is that Mrs. Flora gave me the answers for some of the problems so that's cool. Gotta love that Mrs. Flora. German is just gay and so is history. I came home and finished the english summary that I started in class today. Got that big time Bio party at Mr. Man's on Wed so that'll be cool.

The title refers to yet again another Star Wars video game. Aren't they great. This is the first flying type game that I have played on Xbox and it doesn't fail to be like the others. It's pretty good though, I can't complain. The story line is very original.

I am sorry to announce that the story will not be completed on the date that I originally announced. Some thing went off in my mind telling me that points that I wanted to make about some characters that are necessary for the second part. The second part is very difficult to plan because the year hasn't ended yet. I have decided on the introduction of two new characters not previously mentioned in the one I'm working on now. I'm just distraught. But thanks for paitience guys. Once the site is up a little bit more character descriptions will be up. I'm willing to talk about your personal character if you wish.

Thoughts of her:

Oooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooooooooooooh
oooooooooh oooooooh
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dream of once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dream of
Dreams really do come true

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why oh why can't I

Well I see trees of green and red roses too
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and
I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark
And I think to myself what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow
So pretty in the sky
and also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying
How do you do
They're really saying I, I love you

I hear babies cry and I watch them grow
They'll learn much more then we'll know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
world...

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemondrops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Oh somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dare to
Why oh why can't I...

Ooooooooooooooooooh
Ooooooooooooooooooh
Oooooooh Oooooooooh

That's all I have for today. Comments are always nice.

Preston out

Ps. You looked really cute today, Paige. -PJ

Pps. Star Wars is not an obsession for me. It's a get away from the reality that we are forced to suffer. Some of you will understand, most should actually. Unfortunately I have to come back because no matter how hard I try I'll never be a Jedi. -PJ

All Of The Jedi Action...

2005-05-22T19:41:00.000-05:00

At a bright 430 this morning I got a call. I must admit that I was half asleep and don't remember a whole lot about it but it was Sev. She had called me to wish me a happy birthday, even though it really is not my birthday. That was nice of her. I woke up for real sometime around nine and worked on English. I have six of them down now and have one more to go currently. The party was great; lots of fun.

I have started playing the Star Wars Episode III video game. It is pretty cool. Some of the Force powers and saber moves are awesome. I beat Star Wars Republic Commando today also. It had a sad ending and seemed to be a really short game but oh well.

That's all I have for now.

Preston out

Torn...

2005-05-21T23:19:00.000-05:00

Today was awesome, probably one of the best days that I have had in a while. I went shopping for my birthday presents. I got Star Wars Starfighter Special Edition, Pariah, and Star Wars Episode III Revenge of the Sith, two pairs of shorts, two shirts, sunglasses, a watch, and Star Wars Trivial Pursuit Saga Edition. I also reserved a copy of Star Wars Battlefront II, The Legend of Zelda Twilight Princess, and Halo 2 Multiplayer Map Pack. I have started to play one of the games so that's pretty cool.

I went to this stupid reception thing. It was pretty gay. We left like an hour after we got there. I really don't know why I decided to go. That was a mistake. I got five of my English stories done so far. I have the introduction and the conclusion completed but I want to revise them. In seminar Monday I am going to do the time period shit so I can get that out of the way. I think my birthday celebration tomorrow is going to put me behind schedule. I have done all of the fun stories like Harry Potter and such so that I really don't want to do the rest. I just have to find the motivation to write these stupid things. It really only takes a half an hour to write one max. O, some stories are not going to get quotes just because I really don't want to take the time to find where they are and shit.

I watched a movie today called Assault on Precinct 13. It was all right. I probably would see it again once. Just though you guys ought to know.

I am torn... Torn because I am so happy down here. I don't know what to do... I am torn because of her. I don't know what to do... I am just torn to pieces, guys.

Have a good night all you bitches. You're bitches for not commenting...EVER!

Preston out

Beautiful...

2005-05-21T08:37:00.000-05:00

I wouldn't go that far but it was good. Actually, yesterday was all right, I guess. Taste of Germany was pretty good. Not a whole lot of stress there. Really didn't get to talk to Paige during Cannoot's class today, sorry Paige. I had to walk mentally handicapped kids around the school. That wasn't too stressful or bad. Then the test of death really wasn't that bad in Flora's though she was NOT in a good mood yesterday. Mr. Man's class is a joke as he made us watch this stupid snake porno. After that I went home and packed for my trip.

I arrived in Ft. Wayne somewhere around eightish. I did two of my English project things as soon as I arrived. So that's pretty cool. I've actually already done one this morning. Today I am going shopping for my b-day presents and clothes. See we're celebrating my birthday this weekend because I can't get over here until July if we don't do it this weekend. As of right now they do not have any presents for me so we have to go buy them all. So that's pretty cool. I have to go to some party thing later today maybe. It depends on if I feel like it, which I probably won't so I'll just stay here and play video games.

O, the picture is what I took to get here. Have a good day guys.

Preston out

Finally!!!

2005-05-19T10:53:00.000-05:00

Twenty-eight years in the making. I have waited ten years for this moment. The release of Star Wars Episode III The Revenge of the Sith! The greatest Star Wars movie ever!

Star Wars
Episode III
Revenge of the Sith

War! The Republic is crumbling under attacks by the ruthless Sith Lord, Count Dooku. There are heroes on both sides. Evil is everywhere.

In a stunning move, the fiendish droid leader, General Grievious, has swept into the Republic capital and kidnapped Chancellor Palpatine, leader of the Galactic Senate.

As the Separatist Droid Army attempts to flee the besieged capital with their valuable hostage, two Jedi knights lead a desperate mission to rescue the captive Chancellor...

That was seen everywhere around the world for the first time yesterday on the silver screen. It was great. Elliot, Spencer, Andy, Paige, Amber, Kevin, Tony, Alex, and Lenny were all there to share the experience of a life time. It was incredible.

Preston out

Ugh...

2005-05-18T22:44:00.000-05:00

I'm not happy where the story is going. I think I know what it needs more of. There is a point that I made that I don't think I made clear enough throughout the story so I need to add a scene or two to make it show more clearly. It's just upsetting. I have reached 75 pages it's just frustrating to think about really. I am actually in pre-production of the sequal. That's all I really have right now. Comments would boost my moral.

Preston out

Tuesday...

2005-05-17T18:48:00.000-05:00

I think I like Tuesdays less than Mondays but I am not sure. I am tired of doing the same thing day after day week after week. It gets annoying. Really it does. I am frustrated with my place in life. I feel as if I should be doing something bigger and better than sitting around all day and "learning." It's a very frustrating feeling.

That whole love thing has gotten to me too but I don't feel like writing about it.

New movie is coming out soon. November actually. I'm pumped for that almost as much as I am for Star Wars. Took a Star Wars test today and get a 13 out of 15. So that's cool.

That's all I have for now. Comment people!

Preston out

A New Week...

2005-05-16T20:37:00.000-05:00

Let's see....

I haven't written in a while, sorry.

Today was a pretty good day. Went to school with Al. Found out that I did not have a math test so that was cool. German was boringly gay. US History was really really boring too. If Paige wasn't there I'd probably end up dying in that class. Math was cool as always. Got yelled at for never paying attention though so that sucks. Biology was pretty cool too. I've decided that it is the back corner vs. the front corner and that the front corner is upset cause we're cooler. I don't know what they get pissed off about. It's not like they're paying attention either. So that was cool. I'm glad that we're really not learning anything hard. I have to work on my English portfolio this weekend hardcore cause that's due next Friday guys. O, Amber's hair VERY cute! I love it!

Star Wars is this week! I'm so excited that I think I'm going to shit myself. It's going to be awesome. I really cannot wait.

I've started to reread book five Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (very good). Always a recommendation from me here. Not my fav in the series though.

Lastly gotta talk about this Euchre tourney. It was pretty good. Spencer and I did well. Not the best but well. I was proud of us. We finished 5th in the tourney out of twenty four teams. The mayor was talking crap about us. I really don't know why. But all in all it was fun though we were not back in time for 24. We're going to beat everybody next year, I'm sure.

Where's the comments people?

Preston out.

I'm So Fucking Tired...

2005-05-14T12:48:00.000-05:00

I'm tired guys. I am tired of being treated like shit and kissing ass to get no where. I am not "reading" anybody I'm just telling it how it is. I am unappreciated most of the time until somebody needs something and that is made abundantly clear due to the inability to reason with those who are upset with me. They will not even give me a chance. I guess when things get shitty I must have some other motive. I'm glad you can read me too. You've been reading me well for a long time then. I'm just tired of it and want to be friends. Why is that too much to ask?

Preston out

Interesting...

2005-05-14T11:48:00.000-05:00

Your Birthdate: June 2

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.

The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.

Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.

You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.

It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Last Night Was...

2005-05-14T11:00:00.000-05:00

School sucked yesterday. I am not going to lie to you guys and tell you anything different. It was terrible. We had the Jew for a sub. He wouldn't let us do anything. He was a faggot. During Seminar he said that we couldn't look at exotic animals online so Spencer and I went to Mr. Man to get a note saying that we could. lol that was probably the best part of the day.

A bunch of the guys went over to Andy's to play the greatest FPS ever made, Goldeneye. It is actually in the top ten of greatest games made ever. So that was pretty cool. Then we ordered these G-Bomb pizzas from South Bend because Andy is an idiot and called the wrong place. We were taking turns in the bathroom all night. If you were to light a match in that room the house would have blown up.

Then we played some serious Texas Hold'em. I placed third and I really don't remember who placed first or second. Elliot got fourth from what I remember though.

The website Josh Hall has made for me is up and running but it is still under construction. It does look really nice and as soon as it's even 50% done I'll put up the url to the site.

More later maybe.

Preston out

Thank you...

2005-05-12T20:37:00.000-05:00

Today I had three tests. It really wasn't that bad. German I missed five so that was a bitch. US History was pretty easy, I was the first one done, as always. I took a Biology test and with Mr. Man's help I got all of them correct. That class is ridiculous. Nobody really cares if somebody leaves. It's terrible. I don't even like going there anymore. If it wasn't for Paige and Spencer I wouldn't. I was really hyper today and I really don't know why.

The awards thing tonight was gay, as predicted. I have two tests tomorrow so that's gay. I really don't want to go but I'm pretty sure the perfect three will go to work tomorrow.

The new Xbox was unveiled today as seen above. It is incredible. Xbox 360: Gaming has come full circle.

After some serious consideration I have choosen the person I need to complete the story line. That character will be Nate. I can't say a lot about his character or what he is doing. It is just him. If anybody wants to know more speak with me. Hopefully there will be a promo site up and running soon if the graces of the one and only Josh J. Hall chooses. That should be good. Thanks Josh. Thank you all for your comments.

Preston out

Help...

2005-05-11T18:04:00.000-05:00

I need some help guys. I need one more character for my story about the mafia and I do not know who to make it. I will give you the list of characters that I have already used but I just can't figure it out. Now, I do have the complete story outline for this story I just need a person that we know in order to continue. Again it must be somebody we know. Here is the list of the people already used.

Preston
Spencer
Barbie
Andy
Paige
Allison
Josh Hall
Amber
David
and
Josh R

Thank you guys for your help.

Preston out

Ps. Don't be upset if you have not been included. It is not because I do not like you. It is very difficult due to time constraints to introduce a character just to have them never return not to mention it makes me feel really stupid for even having them in the story. Sorry. -PJ

Sad...

2005-05-11T06:52:00.000-05:00

I am sad cause comments are at a record low...

Preston sadly out

Wow...

2005-05-10T17:50:00.000-05:00

As you all know, I have been writing these stories or whatever you want to call them for a while. For the mafia one I have hit a record of fifty pages today. I know that doesn't sound like much but it really is. I did not like where the story was going so I had to tear the whole thing down and start from scratch. I was not running as similar to our lives as I wanted it to. The theme will remain the same. The most difficult part probably was the choosing of Godfather's. Surprisingly for the story to work out the Godfather is a female. I may post more about it later. An exerpt perhaps. Who knows. Gotta run.

Preston out

Time Is Up...

2005-05-09T21:09:00.000-05:00

Only two more episodes of the best show on television are left. It was great tonight.

What happened today? A lot of nothing. It is always depressing when you don't even make personal accomplishments.

Preston out

After Action Report...

2005-05-08T18:58:00.000-05:00

Last night (prom) was not as bad as it could have been. Diner took way too long to get to us. That pissed me off more than anything about the whole night. All in all I was pretty happy. I hope everybody had a good time. All of the ladies looked stunning. Thank you each for the dances. Spencer's B-day party at the end was fun. Happy B-Day, Pat.

I had a relapse in the middle of prom. Broke down when I got home. Feel like dying now. I hate it. I just want to be loved again. Why is that so wrong?

Suicide Is Painless

Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.

Tired of doing this.

Preston out

We've Reached It...

2005-05-07T15:30:00.000-05:00

00: 01: 00: 00
days hours min sec

D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

We've reached the point of no return.

"Past the point of no return
The final threshold
What warm unspoken secrets
Will we learn
beyond the point of no return?"

Preston out

It's Coming...

2005-05-07T13:30:00.000-05:00

00: 03: 30: 46
days hours min sec

D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

We're almost there...

Preston out

Today...

2005-05-07T08:00:00.000-05:00

00: 05: 30: 24
days hours min sec

D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

Today will be a day long remembered....

Today will be interesting...

Preston out

Happy Birthday!!!

2005-05-07T07:39:00.000-05:00

Today is the day of many happenings in history. The Kentucky Derby is today. The Nazis surrendered to the Allies today. The French lost Ino-China to the Vietnamese. Today is prom. But something more important happened today 17 years ago.

Spencer Brooks Patterson was born onto this forsaken planet we called earth. What could be more important than that in history?

Happy Birthday, Patti. I hope it's one of the best of many to come.

Preston out

Tired of it...

2005-05-05T22:39:00.000-05:00

Tired of the bitchin'. That's all I hear anymore. I've actually had a pretty good week when all is said and done. Tired of the constant complaining. Tired of nothing being good enough anymore. Just stop and be happy with what you have people. Some people are way too fucking happy to get out of here. I admit that I want to get out of here too but Christ people, think about the feelings of others. We all knew that we'd have to split eventually, it was inevitable. Just don't tread on other people's feelings because you are being selfish and want to leave everybody behind. It could be worse and it really isn't that bad. So shut the fuck up people cause you're going to miss 'em when you're gone.

Preston out

Would You Like To Take A Survey...

2005-05-05T09:20:00.000-05:00

YOU...

:x: name: Patillo, Preston James
:x: piercings: none
:x: tattoos: none
:x: height: 5 feet 9 inches
:x: hair color: dark brown
:x: age: 16
:x: birthday: 1988, June 2
:x: status: single but looking
:x: school: Mishawaka High School
:x: eye color: dark brown, possibly black

LAST...

:x: movie you rented: Saw
:x: movie you bought: Saw
:x: song you listened to: Approaching the Battle
:x: song stuck in your head:Ghost of You Good Charlotte
:x: cd you bought: Phantom of the Opera
:x: cd you listened to: See above
:x: last person you called: Patti
:x: person that's called you: My mom
:x: person you've hugged: Cindy
:x: person you've kissed: I don't remember
:x: person you've fought with: A girl about me not being good enough at something at some time for some reason or another
:x: person you complimented: Amber
:x: tv show you've watched: Revelations

Do...

:x: you wish you could live somewhere else:Of course I do. But i don't know where to go
:x: you believe in online dating: no, it's too impersonal
:x: others find you attractive: i hope so
:x: you want more piercings: no, I'm happy with none
:x: you write in cursive or print: print
:x: you carry donor card: yes, i won't need them if I'm dead
:x: believe in long distance relationships: yes, if the couple is strong enough
:x: using someone: hmm...at a time I did but now it's wrong
:x: believe in killing people: depends on the situation; I wouldn't have a problem and I wouldn't look back.
:x: believe in teenage smoking: no,that's gross
:x: believe in driving drunk: no, that's stupid but I guess if you're already drunk you're past the stupidity part
:x: believe in gay/lesbian relationship: yes, I don't judge but keep it away from me
:x: you watch soap operas: no

FAVORITE...

:x: food: cheeseburgers or spagehtti
:x: song: don't have one but if I had to pick right now it'd be Ghost of You
:x: things to do: write
:x: things to talk about: I'll talk about just about anything with anyone but politics, business, and movies are my favs
:x: sports: I don't play any but if I had to pick one to watch it'd be football
:x: drink: Grape Juice
:x: movie: A Beautiful Mind
:x: X-men: Professor X; he's a beast
:x: saying: It's all politics and policy until somebody gets shot in the head.
:x: disney movie: The Lion King or Beauty and the Beast
:x: scent: Vanilla
:x: nickname: PJ; meat head; Presty
:x: guy name: Augustus
:x: girl name: Ana
:x: eye color: blue
:x: flower: roses
:x: class: every class has its ups and downs

HAVE YOU...

:x: ever cried over a guy: No
:x: ever lied to someone: I could say no but that would be a lie
:x: ever been in a fist fight: yes
:x: ever been arrested: no
:x: ever eaten frog legs: thought about it

NUMBER...

:x: of times I have been in love: Twice
:x: of times I have had my heart broken: Once
:x: of hearts I have broken: I wouldn't know
:x: of things in my past that I regret: one

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

:x: pretty: I perfer the word "handsome"
:x: funny: you know it
:x: hot: I'm kind of warm right now, I'm thinking about changing or opening the windows
:x: friendly: can be your best or worst friend; there is no in between
:x: ugly: never
:x: lovable: hope so but doesn't seem like it
:x: pessimistic: rarely
:x: optimistic: always
:x: caring: too much
:x: sweet: when I try
:x: dorky: sometimes
:x: stubborn: more than I should be
:x: random: not as much as I should be

RANDOM...

:x: spell your first name back wards: notserp
:x: the story behind your user name: my all time favorite star wars character is the Clonetrooper. The clone DNA was taken from a bounty hunter named Jango Fett after being recruited by Darth Tyranus (Count Dooku). The cloners choosen were on Kamino. Hence my sn.
:x: are you straight: you better belive it
:x: where do you live: mishawaka
:x: numbers in your cell phone: one
:x: shampoo: any but they have to be the same scent
:x: soap: any

DESCRIBE YOUR...

:x: wallet: perfect square made of fake leather
:x: hairbrush: don't use one
:x: toothbrush: blue
:x: jewelery worn daily: necklace with an emblem of a phoenix and an owl
:x: coffee cup: black works
:x: sunglasses: don't wear any
:x: shoes: blue vans
:x: CD(s) in stereo right now: six; though the cd player doesn't work
:x: what you are wearing now: jeans and a casino tshirt
:x: hair: brown; longer than I'd like it

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)...

:x: in my mouth: my tongue
:x: in my head: the song I'm listening to
:x: wishing: That i could get a break outta this place...
:x: after this: next class
:x: talking to: ericka about the test
:x: if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: Everybody knows who is at the top of my hitlist, it should be obvious why once you know who it is.
:x: person you wish you could see right now: her
:x: is next to you: ericka
:x: something you're looking forward to in this upcoming month: STAR WARS
:x: something (s) that you are deathly afraid of: Not being in control or not knowing the outcome
:x: do you like candles: if they smell good
:x: do you like incense: see above answer
:x: do you believe in forgiveness: Always; karma baby
:x: do you believe in God: scared shitless about what would happen if I didn't
:x: who is your worst enemy: i don't have one
:x: what is the latest/longest you've ever stayed up: 48 hours

LOVE...

:x: do you believe in love: yes
:x: do you believe in soul mates: you bet
:x: do you believe in love at first sight: no
:x: last crush: I can't say because that would be my current crush who's name is owaltcr (good like trying to decode that one)
:x: best make-out music: depends on the mood
:x: best way to propose/be proposed to: Out of town in front of a ton of people to declare your love for all to see
:x: where do you want to go on your honey moon: Europe
:x: dream spouse: I don't want to say
:x: dream house: The White House
:x: kids: 3; two boys and a girl

That was fun. All wuestions that would imply that I am gay or that repeated have been ommited.

Preston out

Today was good...

2005-05-04T19:33:00.000-05:00

Today was a really good day and those don't come very often. I went to school as always. I was supposed to talk to Mrs. B about my test but she decided it would be cool not to show up. During this time I approved the rules for the Euchre Tourney Monday. German was pretty gay because we had to do book work but then I got a sticker so that made up for it. U.S. History was awesome because I already know everything that is going on. There is little to no learning. And to top it off Mr. Cannoot is a fan of 24. Who would have thought. But it is cool either way. Then Mrs. Flora was having a good day and I got a good grade on my test so that was cool. Then in Biology, Mr. Man had us dissect bull frogs. They are huge and wet.

After that I came home and took a nap. After that I played some video games. Then I went outside to practice my lightsaber skills. Ter-Ca Camis threatened me to a duel but I beat him but then somehting interesting happened.

I practice outside with a lightsaber in my hand and another laying in the ground. After I beat Ter-Ca Camis an unknown Jedi approached me and challenged me to a duel. I could not help myself. We fought faster and harder than I ever had fought. Well timed punches and kicks were thrown. He was powerful, no doubt. I used the Force and obtained the other lightsaber. Even with wielding two lightsabers he still managed to parry my every attack. He then kicked me in the face forcing me to drop the lightsaber in my left hand. Then the best thing ever happened. We fought faster and harder. I blocked his every attack. Then I unleashed a series of attacks that could have only been guided by the Force. I thrusted my saber towards the Jedi in my rage. Then I thrusted upwards, cutting off his hand and sending his ignited saber into the air. I caught the saber as the Jedi fell to his knees. Then I sliced his head off and his corpse fell to the ground. The Force is with me.

I am still struggling with my crush. I do not know what to do or what direction to take. The ball is in her court now...

Preston out

My Name Is Federal Agent Jack Bauer...

2005-05-03T22:20:00.000-05:00

Last night's episode of 24 proved why Jack Bauer is my hero. He had a witness, crucial to the finding of one of the most devistating nuclear bomb in the arsenal of the United States, who had been shot. His girlfriend's ex-husband was in the operating room. The doctor refused to operate on the witness. Jack drew his gun and forced the surgeon to work on his witness. Through his girlfriend's pleas, Jack insisted that he was doing his job. Her ex-husband died. "He knows what needs to be done in order to successfully accomplish his objectives and will stop at nothing to do it."

And These Are The Longest Days Of My Life.

My inspiration is Jack Bauer. Bauer was born in one thousand nine hundred sixty-five in Santa Monica, California. He graduated with a Bachelor’s degree in English literature from the University of California: Los Angeles. He also has a Master’s degree in Criminology and Law from the University of California: Berkley. He is a former Los Angeles Police Department SWAT Team member and a former member of the United States Army’s elite Delta Force. He has earned a Purple Heart and a Silver Star for his services to his country. He currently works for the Defense Department under the Secretary of Defense. He was fired from his last job at the Counter Terrorist Unit: Los Angeles being the Director of Field Operations. During his time at the Counter Terrorist Unit he has successfully halted two presidential assassinations, two nuclear bombs, and a biological viral attack. He is a widower, after his co-worker, Nina Myers, a mole in the agency, murdered his wife, Teri Bauer, while trying to capture after her cover was blown. Three years later Jack avenged the death of his wife by emptying a clip from his Sig Sauer P226 two tone into her chest. He also has a daughter, Kimberly Bauer, who lives in Santa Monica, California with her boyfriend, Chase Edmunds. Jack has been described as an uncompromising patriot for his country. That patriotism is always questioned by his co-workers because of his unorthodox tactics. Bauer has devoted his life to his job serving his country. He makes the ultimate sacrifices necessary to protect this country, such as the death of his wife and becoming addicted to heroine. He knows what needs to be done in order to successfully accomplish his objectives and will stop at nothing to do it. Jack Bauer shows immense courage and bravery in the line of duty and his service record to this country proves it. This is why Jack Bauer is my inspiration. Jack Bauer: the man, the husband, the father, the hero.

Preston Out

Fire Drill Mania

2005-05-03T15:52:00.000-05:00

Today was all right. I had this math test that was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Then we had the three fire drills. I know where to go if we actually have an emergency. In Anatomy we didn't really do much. We traced out bodies. Amber traced mine and it was really big cause she messed up and I guess I don't have a neck. English was really really boring. That's all for now. I have to go to work.

Preston out

Ps. One day I will be great.

I Want More...

2005-05-02T19:51:00.000-05:00

I have decided that I am not meant for this time period. Like at all. I am not supposed to be here. I should not have been born when I was. And I am starting to hate it.

Preston out

Ghost Of You...

2005-05-01T21:47:00.000-05:00

I will wait until the end
When the pendralem will swing back
to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
next to me like its a grave
where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

So here I am pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living on these walls
I see my breathe in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm

wondering I'm wondering if its you that I fell if its you that I feel

haunting me forever

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

and I'm not looking for
anything but us
anything but what we were
and I'm not asking for
any memories
I only want to know you're here

A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all.

Good Charlotte

My love for you is secret
I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart

I think she knows...

Preston out

Trip...

2005-05-01T08:25:00.001-05:00

I am journeying to Ft. Wayne at the moment. I will be back later to night probably. Have fun while I am away. I will miss you all.

Preston out

Earth...

2005-04-30T21:20:00.000-05:00

..It Was Fun While It Lasted.

Well, last week was kind of like the above picture and I feel like the asteroid and earth is the prom. I am sorry that I was a dick last week. I should have just let things be. I hope that you guys will forgive me for being a dick. I wish I could take what I did last week back but I can't. I'm just sorry.

Preston

State Of The Prom

2005-04-29T15:25:00.000-05:00

Good afternoon:

On Tuesday, April 26, 2005, Allison Gill, Isabel Fraga, and Paige Fairchild agreed to hand over the task of finding an alternative location for prom photographs to Spencer Patterson, Andy O’Dell, and Preston Patillo. Later that night the word given to the boys by the girls present was reneged when Amber Taylor received word of the impending changes. Through extreme and, at times, aggressive negotiations were the boys only able to secure the right to choose the location with an amendment stating a deadline. Both parties agreed.

Last night Thursday, April 28, 2005, a second conference was held via an internet chat room between Allison, Preston, Spencer, and Amber. At this conference the boys unveiled their plan for the new location for pictures. During this meeting the idea of taking pictures with others was brought up and the ever so popular catch phrase was introduced, “last minute change ups.”

From day one of this endeavor in which the boys have embarked on together they have been oppressed. Our ideas have not even been considered. The boys have accepted amendments to what has already been agreed upon and have accomplished the tasks accordingly, even with the extra burdens. The boys were not allowed to the timetable for prom at all and the boys did not. The boys have stayed within the parameters laid out before them by the girls, picked a suitable alternative location, and completed the task before the deadline. But there has been no recognition for the boys’ accomplishments. Only excuses and hypocrisy from the girls. The girls have suddenly needed to make “last minute change ups.” The girls are concerned about taking pictures with other people, which was not a condition that the boys had to meet in our venture to change the picture location.

Though this situation has been successfully neutralized the the tension still lingers and I feel that this still needs to be brought to your attention. I am upset that the situation ever had to have to reach this climax. Spencer and I are not the only cause of this "drama."Nor have we been unreasonable with any of you. I have only take the actions that I felt were necessary to be heard.Do not be so quick to point the finger. "He That Is Without Sin Among You, Let Him First Cast a Stone." I do not feel that I should be made out to be the “bad guy” when I did not act alone. I gave into your demands for something simple in return. I have done all that I can do for you. I do not know what else you would have me do.

The inability to successfully come to an acceptable compromise for each party, or even thinking about compromising, has proven to me and should prove to you how dysfunctional this group of “friends” really is. I have come to the brink, on more than one location, during negotiations, to not go to prom at all. The boys have not been heard. I do not feel that I am being unreasonable due to the circumstances that the boys have had to endure. The girls do not seem to care what I have to say and, therefore, I have no reason to care what they have to say.

The inability to talk about the situation has embarrassed me as one of your “friends” to the highest extent. To the point that I do not even wish to call myself that anymore. The actions taken by some of you are that in which is unbecoming of a true “friend.” I would never have thought that I would be embarrassed by my own “friends” but I was wrong. You should each be ashamed of yourselves. The fact that partisan politics between us has torn us apart over this. Oh, and I evidentially do care or I would not put this much effort into neutralizing the situation.

Lastly, I would like to apologize to each and every one of you. I am sorry that the situation got out of control. Amber, I am sorry for the “drama.” Allison, I am sorry that you were so unreasonable, not wanting to hear a word that I had to say, that I yelled at you. Spencer, I am sorry that this all had to happen on your birthday. Paige, I am sorry for the whole mess and the stress that it has caused you. Isabel, I am sorry that you had to mediate the situation and I thank you accordingly. Andy, I am sorry you will not get involved in anything and therefore hurt your own gender. I am sorry that the situation had to be like this. Your feedback is appreciated. Thank you for your time

Sadly,
Preston

I Am The Senate...

2005-04-28T18:06:00.001-05:00

Above is a pictures of Surpeme Chancellor Palpatine of the Galactic Republic, AKA Darth Sidious, Dark Lord of the Sith, announcing the end of the Republic and the beginning of the Empire. Do you feel that that could be done today. The checks and balances system is dwindling. We are seeing it everyday. I dunno how far off we may actually be from that. "I declare the Republic abolished. We are now an Empire!"

Lastly, why am I meant to suffer? Why is it so wrong to want to be happy? To want to be loved?

Tell me what you think.

Preston out

DST Issues

2005-04-28T17:13:00.000-05:00

Standard time was fixed in 1883 to prevent the myriad of short time differences that would result if every locality determined the mean solar time by different meridians, depending on the longitude of the particular place. Lines at every 15° longitude were drawn down a map of Earth to create 24 international time zones differing from each preceding and following zone by one hour. Because of political boundaries, such lines often depart from the strict 15° rule and sometimes zigzag or demarcate ares that differ by half an hour only.

The continental United States has four meridians designated to determine standard times: 75° , 90° , 105° , and 120° west of Greenwich, England. Alaska Standard Time is determined by the meridian at 135° west of Greenwich and Hawaii-Aleutian Standard Time is set at the 150° meridian.

Canada has a total of six time zones: the four that apply in the continental United States and an additional two in the east. Atlantic Standard Time is based on 60° west of Greenwich and is one hour ahead of Eastern Standard Timel Newfoundland Standard Time, based on 52° 30' west, is 30 minutes ahead of Atlantic Standard Time.

The mean solar time determined by the meridian that runs through Greenwich, England (Greenwich Mean Time), is called Universal Time. It is used all over the world in navigation, both air and sea, and for scientific purposes, as in astronomy. From Greenwich, too, longitudes are measured around the world, Greenwich being 0° , called the prime meridian.

A NOTE FROM ME:

Basically daylights savings time is made so that you get better use out of the amount of sunlight that you have. It would create more jobs due to the fact that there are more hours in the day that we could actually work.

Preston

I Sense Something...

2005-04-27T20:42:00.000-05:00

Today, being a half day, was tolerable. Not a whole lot to say.

I sense something...something that I have not felt in a very long time... I don't know what to make of it right now.

O, I'd appreciate some comments.

Preston out

Over This War Is Not

2005-04-26T20:12:00.000-05:00

The war is not even close to being over yet. I still kind of agree with yesterday's entry but I believe that the fat lady is far from singing. Today was interesting. I want Amber not to be annoyed with me anymore. I want Amber to be happy, also, even if that means being annoyed with me. She is a good friend. I worry about her. I do not want her to cry inside. I want her to tell me why I make her cry inside. I don't want to make her cry. Something else has started to happen. Actually a few things. I am so unsure on which path to go down... Until then I will have to continue looking off into the sunset wishing for better days.

Preston out

Your Destinies Lie Along A Different Path Than Mine...

2005-04-25T15:33:00.000-05:00

Latey I guess that I have been thinking. We are not too far off from starting our final chapter together. I just think of all that we have been through... all the places that we are going. We do not have that much more time to spend together. We are all leaving each other soon.

I keep looking back on the actions in which I have taken over the last three years and the decisions in which I have made. Regret none of them do I. Only because that is how I know life was meant to be. I do look back on them and ask myself a few questions. I guess I am coming to the conclusion that I am not the person that I am supposed to be right now. I do not know what to do about it or where to start I just know that.

Over the next few months I have already forseen that I will have to make decisions that will determine the outcome of my life. Which path do I want to start on? Where do I want to go? I fear that I will have to bargain with Satan to achieve the goals in life in which I want to achieve. I already know of two deals that are currently on the table for my future. Now I just have to accept them. Difficult it will be, I know to accept one. I look at that one at least once a day every day. I examine each possible outcome. I know what I want and I know how to get it. It is just doing it and how many people I am going to affect/hurt by doing it.

Part of me wants to have something that could never be real. Other parts of me just want the simplest things. I am so torn. Fighting in me everyday. Take the path of what is right, which is longer and harder, or the path of what is easy, which is shorter and simpler. And the love factor does not help the situation. Tearing me up inside. I wish that I could turn off all emotion, as I once did. Then there wouldn't be any problems.

I believe that the phoenix has reached its climax and is burning into ashes onces more...

I don't know anymore. I not becoming the person that I am supposed to be.

Preston out

The Party Of A Life Time

2005-04-24T17:54:00.000-05:00

And it was... Just wow. There were over 30,000 people there at the Celebration and you could tell. They actually sold out. There were people all over the place in costumes. Some not so flattering to their appearance (such as the two men dressed as females). There was so much to see and so much to do. The lines though oh the lines. I never thought I'd get out of lines. I saw some incredible footage of the new movie and some other things that I never knew of. I also got to play Battlefront II and Revenge of the Sith before everybody else. So that was pretty cool. I'm not going ot write it all down cause there's so much to say. I'm sure I'll tell you all in person.

Preston out

Tonight...

2005-04-22T22:22:00.000-05:00

Tonight I said something that I know that I should not have.

My love for you is secret
I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart

Please God let her understand if she finds out.

Preston(tears)

Fear The Wrath Of God...

2005-04-22T15:26:00.000-05:00

The Creator

I want to make a comment about yesterday's entry. Though I may have thought about it I could never actually go through with it. For one main reason. Many of you, for some reason, think that I do not believe in God. That could not be farther from the truth. I believe in God and fear him. I know that if I were to commit suicide that I could never be in His divine presence or be Enlightened. I know that I am not strong enough to endure the coldness from being away from God. Therefore I couldn't ever do it even if I wanted to. I just thought I should clear that up for any and all who were worried.

Today was pretty good. Mr. Cannoot got made when I said "Japs" and "Krauts." I just like to live in that time in history. Then in Biology Spencer and I kicked some shark ass. So all and all I had a really good day.

This will be the last entry for the next two days due to the fact that I will be travelling to Indianapolis for Celebration III. I will be sure to update when I return.

The Party Of A Life Time

Have a good weekend guys.

Preston out (for a while)

MISH Gives A DAMN

2005-04-21T23:01:00.000-05:00

Suicide Is Painless

Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.

That's what I'm feeling.

Preston out

It's In The Wind...

2005-04-21T20:29:00.000-05:00

As Terror Lurks In The Shadows

That had to be about the dumbest idea that Mishawaka High School has ever had in their entire history. I mean it is ridiculous that we run outside when there is a terrorist threat. That's cool. Today was pretty boring. Not a whole lot got done. Pre-cal was really easy. Mrs. Flora threw me out of her seminar today. Evidentally, she does not like "Your mom" jokes. But whatever. Then in Anatomy Amber and I were assigned a project. We're going to sing a song about the trip of a red blood cell. That should be interesting... Anyway, in English we did not do a whole lot of anything. Lastly we had that stupid Terror Drill. That was gay. Then Spencer and I stayed after school to help Cheryl and Allison (who ditched us). I feel that both of us are ready to go.

Well that's all I have for today.

Preston out

Congrats...

2005-04-20T16:55:00.000-05:00

Today was actually pretty fun. So that was cool.

German was kind of all right. I can finally do the person I want to do, Jack Bauer. So that's cool. I really don't have anybody in my life that really inspires me but I guess Jack Bauer would have to be my hero. If I was being held hostage anywhere I would only need to call Jack Bauer and he'd get me out no problem. Above that is in German, if you can read it.

Then in U.S. History, Spencer and I pounded on WWII. Mr. Cannoot starts to whip out questions about Hilter and Co. We were all over it. I think Mr. Cannoot was actually impressed. I'm unsure. I have gotten into many an argumet about Adolf Hitler being one of the greatest leaders of all time and that if he was never born nothing that is right now would be the same. Comment on either if you like. Speaking of impressive I think Mrs. Flora was impressed with Spencer and I today. We had some weird asain guy come in and we couldn't really understand him. But whatever.

Off to Biology. This is day 7 of the shark. They're starting to smell really bad. Paige and Wendy went to get gloves but Mr. Man made us press on anyway. I think Mr. Man was impressed with Spencer and my knowledge of the shark. So that's pretty cool. Got that test of Friday guys. I am staying after school tomorrow for an hour to help any and all who need it for the shark anatomy. I'll be

Preston Patillo
Shark Anatomist Extraordinaire
Guaranteeing your "A"
"What is that again? The rectal gland, that's right. Looks like a small penis."

So that'll be fun.

Lastly, I have to congratulate Steven "Andy" O'Dell for winning the presidency of National Honors Society, Spencer Patterson for winning the vice-presidency of National Honors Society and Joshua Hall for winning treasurer of National Honors Society. Good job guys, you deserve it.
It should be interesting to see you guys play out your roles.

That's all I have for now guys.

Preston out

Even More Quizzes...

2005-04-19T08:43:00.000-05:00

You scored as yoda. You are Yoda. You're a very wise and practical green midget thingy. People underestimate you but that's okay, you can still kick their asses!

yoda

88%

luke

67%

darth vader

63%

leia

54%

the emperor

38%

han

25%

Which Star Wars Charectar Are You?
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You scored as Not the Dictator Type. You are mushy and nostalgic for that whole democracy thing! That or you just haven't got the cahonnehs to be brutal! Either way, stick to your day job!

Russia

69%

Not the Dictator Type

69%

Pakistan

56%

Cuba

31%

North Korea

25%

What country should you be dictator of?
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You scored as Writer. Yeah your're a writer sorry you wont make any money!

Writer

75%

Lawyer

67%

Chef

58%

model

29%

singer

25%

What's your ideal career((dont worry just mad by a 16 yr ol dont base you life on this!))
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You scored as Strategist. You scored Strategist you are good at creating strategys and not that athlitick and should stick to the desk job.

Strategist

94%

soldier

63%

fodder

13%

what milatery positon are you
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O, there was no html code for these three so I'll just say it. The bounty hunter I am most like is Jango Fett. The way I'd die if I was in Star Wars, lightsaber duel. And (the one I am most proud of) the charactoer of 24 I am most like Jack Bauer, after a rigorous test of over 50 questions.

That's all for now.

Preston Out

Today...

2005-04-18T22:13:00.000-05:00

Today was boring for the most part. I went to school, pretended to learn. The only fun I did have is when I smacked around Allison in Biology. Good times, Patti, good times. It's so frickin hot. It's not just hot though, it's humid. I hate it. Give me 74 degrees and rainy any day. Maine and Washington are calling my name. Anyway, for lack of anything better to do, I took this from Amber. Fill it out please

1. Who are you?

2. When and how did we meet?

3. How have I affected you?

4. What do you think of me?

5. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

6. How long do you think we will be friends?

7. Do you love me?

8. Do you have a crush on me?

9. Would you kiss me?

10. Would you hug me?

11. Physically, what stands out?

12. Emotionally, what stands out?

13. Do you wish I was cooler?

14. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

15. Am I loveable?

16. What do you think my weakness is?

17. Do you think I'll get married? To you?

19. What makes me sad?

20. Do you think I could kill someone?

21. Do you think that someone would kill me?

22. If i were an animal, what do u think i would be?

23. If i were a song, what would i be?

24. Do u think i will be happy in the future?

25. If we ever grow apart, will u miss me?

26. If we ever grow apart, would i be someone that u look back fondly on?

27. Have i ever taught you anything?

28. Have i been there for you?

29. Do u need me? [friend, aquaintance, etc]

30. if u were to make a screen name for me, what would it be?

31. What is your favorite sport to watch/play etc.?

Have a good night guys.

Preston Out

more quizes...

2005-04-18T16:29:00.000-05:00

You scored as Republican. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>

Republican

75%

Fascism

50%

Socialist

50%

Anarchism

42%

Democrat

42%

Communism

42%

Green

33%

Nazi

17%

What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.

Albus Dumbledore

85%

Harry Potter

85%

Hermione Granger

80%

Severus Snape

75%

Sirius Black

75%

Remus Lupin

75%

Draco Malfoy

50%

Ron Weasley

50%

Lord Voldemort

45%

Ginny Weasley

20%

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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Unexpected Death...

2005-04-17T20:27:00.000-05:00

Most of today was boring. Thought I must remember that it was so much better than being in school so I mustn't complain much. The day was topped off very interestingly.

I went outside for a bit of fresh air and to check out my hot tub and there he was. Darth Ter-Ca Camis, Lord of the Sith, in the flesh. Before I could get a figure out waht has happening the Sith Lord got off a death blow with his lightsaber, that I barely blocked. Our sabers continued to hit as we jumped and parried to avoid one anothers attacks. Leaping over one another in an incredible display of acrobatics, we fight harder than ever. Then I grabbed my second lightsaber and ignited it. The fighter grew faster than before on and on. Then Ter-Ca knocked the lightsaber out of my right hand. He was well trained and stronger than I was, probably faster too. I grew tired. Then it came. He jolted the hilt of his lightsaber into my abdomen. I did not even see it coming. As I went down I grabbed his throat, trying to choke him to death. He just smiled at my. Through the Force he grabbed my other lightsaber and stabbed me through the back. That was it. The battle was over. I had lost. Ter-Ca Camis hissed at the sky and then looked down at my corpse as he holstered his saber and walked away...

Preston

Taking From Amber's...

2005-04-17T19:55:00.000-05:00

You scored as Loner.

Loner

75%

Ghetto gangsta

69%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

63%

Punk/Rebel

44%

Geek

44%

Goth

38%

Drama nerd

31%

Stoner

25%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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I didn't like the choices for celebrities so I didn't do it. And then I just chose others.

You scored as Islam. Your beliefs are most similar to those of Islam. Do more research on Islam and possibly consider taking the shahadah and officially becoming a Muslim, if you aren't already.

Despite the actions of some - who go against the teachings of Islam - Islam is a religion of peace; the word "islam" means "peace through submission to God." "Muslim" means "one who submits to God." Islam is the third of the three Abrahamic faiths, and it shares much with Judaism in Christianity; its differences are the acceptance of Muhammad as the last and final prophet, and the oneness of God - in other words, that Jesus, though he was a revered prophet, was not in fact God, and only one God exists. Apparently the Taliban could not read (though their name means "students"), because the Qur'an states that men and women are equal as believers, and that all believers should be educated and seek knowledge. Modesty in dress and behavior is required in Islam for both men and women to preserve the values of society and move the emphasis from superificial appearance to intelligence, knowledge, and God.

Islam

79%

agnosticism

67%

Buddhism

54%

Judaism

50%

Paganism

46%

Christianity

42%

Satanism

38%

atheism

25%

Hinduism

17%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Interesting...

You scored as Gunshot. Your death will be by gunshot, probably because you are some important person or whatever.

Gunshot

80%

Disappear

73%

Posion

67%

Natural Causes

67%

Cut Throat

60%

Suicide

53%

Eaten

47%

Bomb

47%

Stabbed

40%

Disease

33%

Accident

27%

Drowning

27%

Suffocated

20%

How Will You Die??
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Just how I want it to be.

Preston

A Change...

2005-04-17T13:27:00.000-05:00

I am currently working on a new journal. While it is under construction, I have made this promo page. Have fun with that.

www.geocities.com/kaminocloners/Promo.html

Preston

All I Ask Of You...

2005-04-16T22:42:00.000-05:00

From The Phantom Of The Opera

RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.
Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .
Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .

BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .

RAOUL
You know I do . . .

BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .

I'm feeling a lot right now. I am very confused. Maybe that sums up how I'm feeling.
I don't know.

Preston

What A Day...

2005-04-16T21:48:00.000-05:00

Today I woke up at a beautiful nine o'clock. I had to be at work at 9:30 so that was exciting. I was there until about oneish. Then Allison and I went to Mancino's and ate. After that we went to the tennis courts to watch Spencer, Andy, and Isabel play. We left soon after that and went back to Allison's house. We sat outside her house and talked a bit. This big dog came and scared the shit out of Allison's dog. That was kind of funny.

In search of wine. In search of women. In search of themselves.

Then we went inside and watched Sideways. I thought that it was a good movie but Allison did not. She claims that I didn't like it either because I fell asleep but actually I have already seen it so that's all right. Soon after that I came home and talked to my mom and stuff. Then I started to watch another movie.

The Only Way Out Is Up

Then I watched a remake of the 1965 version of Flight of the Phoenix. It was all right. I think I like it better than the one that we saw in seventh grade. But there were some things that upset me about it. Other than that I have not done a whole lot today.

The following I took from Spencer's journal.

------------ FAV0RITES ------------------
[x] Shamp0o: I don't care but they have to match.
[x] Fav C0lor(s): black, blue, and red
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: spring (thought I really don't have that as a choice)
---------------- RIGHT N0W ------------------
[x] Right N0w Wearing: shorts and a t-shirt
[x] Drinking: OJ
[x] Thinking Ab0ut: People, the future, Amber
[x] Listening T0: Angel of Music from The Phantom of the Opera soundtrack
---------------- IN THE LAST 24 HRS ----------------
[x] Cried: no
[x] W0rn Jeans: yeah
[x] D0ne Laundry: no
[x] Dr0ve a Car: ridden in one
----------------- D0 YOU BELIEVE IN ----------------
[x] Y0urself: at times
[x] Your Friends: always
[x] Santa Claus: nope
[x] T0oth Fairy: no
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes, if anybody wants to get into this more with me, I'd be more than happy to.
[x] Angels: yes
[x] Gh0sts: yea, I'd have to
[x] UF0's: Is this really something to believe in?
[x] G0d: I have to
---------------- FRIENDS AND LIFE ----------------
[x] D0 you ever wish you had an0ther name?: Yes: Preston
[x] D0 you have a girlfriend/b0yfriend?: no
[x] D0 you like any0ne?: of course
[x] Which 0ne of y0ur friends acts the most like y0u?: spencer...Mr. Man quote "It's a 2 for 1!" (thanks for the answer Spencer)
[x] Are y0u close to any family member?: no, they're nuts but I guess it'd have to be my dad if I had to choose
[x] What's the best feeling in the w0rld?: success
[x] W0rst feeling?: not having control; being alone
[x] What time is it n0w?: 10:01 PM

---------------- ALL AB0UT YOU ----------------
Shouldn't this have been the first section? Out of order!
[x] Name: Patillo, Preston James
[x] Birth Date: June 2, 1988
[x] Current L0cation: Mishawaka, IN
[x] Eye C0lor: dark brown
[x] Hair C0lor: dark brown
[x] Righty or Lefty: righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: gemini
---------------- 0N THE INSIDE ----------------
[x] Y0ur Heritage: either irish or italian, my father is looking into that
[x] Sh0es you w0re today?: my vans and sandals
[x] Y0ur Weakness: I don't hold a grudge
[x] Y0ur Fears: not being in control; being alone
[x] Your Perfect Pizza: everything except anchovies and pineapple
[x] G0al You'd Like to Achieve: Become the Preisdent of the United States
---------------- YESTERDAY, T0DAY, TOM0RROW ----------------
[x] Your Most 0verused Phrase: but whatever
[x] Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Fuck!
[x] Your Best Physical Feature: yeah good one.
[x] Your Bedtime: anytime; usually between 11 and 12
[x] Your M0st Missed Memory: Freshman year
[x]Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: pass
---------------- Y0UR PICK----------------
[x] Pepsi or C0ke: neither I can't have pops
[x] McD0nald's or Burger King: McDonalds
[x] Single or Gr0up Dates: single
[x] Adidas or Nike: neither I like vans
[x] Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton all the way
[x] Chocolate or Vanilla: twist
[x] Cappuccin0 or C0ffee: frappucino
---------------- D0 YOU? ----------------
[x] Sm0ke?: no
[x] Cuss: yea, should probably stop
[x] Single: yes
[x] Take a Sh0wer: yea
[x] Have a Crush: of course
[x] Think Y0u've Been in Love: yeah yeah
[x] Like(d) High Sch0ol: yea but this year is in the pooper
[x] Want to get Married: yea
[x] Get M0tion Sickness: no
[x] Think Y0u're a Health Freak: i don't like other people's germs that I don't know
[x] Get Along With Your Parents: 50/50
[x] Play an Instrument: clarinet and piano
[x] Sing: yea, when I'm alone
[x]Like Thunderstorms: they're fun to listen to
---------------- IN THE PAST M0NTH ----------------
[x] Drank Alc0hol: no
[x] G0ne on a Date: no
[x] G0ne to the Mall: yes I love the mall, when I have money to buy something
[x] Been on Stage: no
[x] Eaten an Entire B0x of Oreos: no
[x] Eaten Sushi: no
[x] Been Dumped: no
[x] G0ne Skating: no
[x] G0ne Skinny Dipping: no
[x] Dyed Y0ur Hair: no
[x] St0len Anything: no
---------------- EVER? ----------------
[x] Played a Game that Required Rem0val of Clothing: gunna have to say no
[x] Been Trashed or Extremely Int0xicated: no
[x] Been Caught "D0ing S0mething": not that I can remember
[x] Been Called a Tease: actually, yes
[x] G0tten Beaten Up: no
[x] Changed Wh0 You Were To Fit In: we all wear masks at times
---------------- GETTING 0LDER----------------
[x] Age Y0u Hope t0 be Married: yes
[x] H0w do Y0u Want to Die?: I want to be shot
[x] What do Y0u Want to be when Y0u Grow Up?: Lawyer/President/Writer/Director/Nobel Prize Winner...
[x] What C0untry(ies) would Y0u Most Like to Visit?: I want to go back home to Italy.
------------ IN A GIRL? ----------------
[x] Best eye c0lor?: blue or brown
[x] Best hair c0lor?: blonde or brunette
[x] Sh0rt or L0ng Hair: long
[x] Height: mine
[x] Articles 0f Clothing: I'd have to see about that one...
---------------- IN THE NUMBERS ----------------
[x] Number 0f people I c0uld trust with my life?: very few, maybe 5
[x] Number 0f CD's I own?: 30+
[x] Number 0f piercing?: 0
[x] Number 0f tatto0s?: 0
[x] Number 0f times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: about 6-10 times
[x] Number 0f scars on my b0dy?: 1
[x] Number 0f things in my past that I regret?: 1
[x] Number of Drugs you have taken: 0

I have a lot to say but I am unsure of how to say it. I will say that what I have on my mind has a lot to do with Amber. I just don't know how to say it or what to say I guess. Maybe more later.

Have a good night, guys.

Preston

A Comedy Straight From The Heart

2005-04-16T08:57:00.000-05:00

Last night was pretty fun. It started with going with Izzy to see her dress. It looks very nice and I am almost positive that it'll go with my tie. Then we went to Bonnie Doon's and ate. After that we went to Kohl's where Izzy shopped in which seemed like forever. Allison met us out there and we visited Old Navy, Shoe Carnival, and Dick's (odd ball there). After that we drove around for a bit but then decided to go back to my house to pick up a movie. We brought I <3> and Sideways but when we got there we didn't watch either of the two.

We actually ended up watching Return to Me. This is a movie that I have had to have seen at least three times now with Allison. But it was all right another time around. It is good that I forget what happens so its like a new movie every time. We had a giant pillow fight and then went home. Then I talked to Allison and Spencer before going to bed at a nice 12:30 AM. And now I'm here.

I have to say something to all that read my journal. Please do not read anything and take it personally or assume anything. If you have a question about anything on my journal I would be more than happy to discuss it with you via the comment section here or in a private IM. There has just been too many incidents recently where people read my journal in the wrong context because they assume and take it personally. I am sorry for all who commit this act. Again, just talk to me.

Have a good day, guys.

Preston

Revenge

2005-04-15T16:17:00.000-05:00

Revenge

Initiating....

Access Granted....

Welcome to Operation P 5....

Status.....

Phase I is 85% complete....

"At last we will reveal ourselves....at last we will have revenge."

Preston

uhhh...

2005-04-14T21:35:00.000-05:00

After my post yesterday I have nothing.

I am considering changing the name of my journal. I am open to suggestions guys.

Have a good night.

Preston

My love for you is secret ...

2005-04-13T17:59:00.000-05:00

My love for you is secret
I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart

Preston(sigh)

Quiz

2005-04-12T22:04:00.000-05:00

I made a quiz instead of an entry for today.

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050412230320-67385

Have fun people.

Preston

Very Interesting...

2005-04-12T12:53:00.000-05:00

The word of today is: love. Love is a very interesting word. It can be both a noun and a verb.
The meaning of love is strong affection for another arising out of kinship and affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests . Now let us examine this. Based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests meaning that those who wish to work together, look up to one another, or are friendly towards each other love each other. Through our relationships with other people, mainly our friendships, and even, though rare, our enemies, we admire them as brothers and sister and form a bond so tight that we begin to love them. We begin to develop deep emotional attachement to them. We should love everybody. Loving makes the days go by so much better. Love makes us whole. Love makes us more powerful than hate ever could. We should all love. I love you, brothers and sisters.

Though my entry yesterday was not directed at anybody specifically, it seems as if a certain person felt that it was. I will not say that I am sorry for it because I am not. I clearly stated that it was just a coincidence if that was the case. But again, somebody felt that it was about them. I take no responsiblity if this one person, who is without name, due to his/her fear. As we addressed yesterday, fear is part of the definition of hate. I could retaliate by writing something nasty, but I will not. I refuse to. I will be the bigger person and hold out the olive branch to who ever the one (though we all know who he/she is) to build a possible friendship and ultimately prosper. Let it be known that I have no harsh feelings for this person, whoever he/she is. My heart is filled with love. I am forgiving that person for their words of hatred and forgetting about it. I only welcome them with open arms. I feel that we could each accomplish all in which we are trying so hard to achieve if we work together, in our common interests. Whether or not he/she chooses to accept is merely up to them and they will not be judged either way. Though you hate me, I will still call you brother and I will love you. So please, take my hand, brother, and come with me to promised land in which we each wish so hard to see.

Do not forget to spread the love.

That is all for the time being, brothers and sisters.

Preston

Preston takes no responsiblity for anything resembling an actual person in the word of the day.

Back To The Old...

2005-04-11T21:08:00.000-05:00

Slave Ship

Today was a great day back at the slave ship. It was terrible. I hate it there I really do. After school, I had to go to a meeting and then I went with Number 4 to Wal-Mart and out to eat. That was pretty fun.

I believe it is necessary to pull out the word of the day. The word of the day is: hate. Hate is an interesting word. It can be used as both a noun and a verb. Its meaning is intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury. Now this is interesting. Hate derives from those three things. Hmmm.... there are some that hate me. For those people perhaps they sense that I have injured them in some way or perhaps it is because they are angry at me. Perhaps it is all of them. But most likely, it is fear in which makes them hate me. Fear that I am stronger than them. Fear that I am smarter than them. Fear that I am faster than them. Fear that I am better than them in every way, shape, or form. Now fear, which leads to anger, which leads to hate, which we have discussed and that leads to something else: suffering. Suffering on all parties involved with the one filled with hatred. Suffering in anger of never being able to actually touch the one in which they hate. It is a terrible fate to suffer. Really, it is. Now, being the nice person that I am am going to sincerly appologize to all that hate me.

Dear All Who Hate Me:

I am sorry that you are afraid that I can kick your ass. I am sorry that you are angry that you're a bastard. I am sorry that you hate that I'm better than you. And I am most definitely sorry that you are suffering because your bitch of a mother decided to conceive you.

Sincerly,
Preston

And that ends our word for the day. Now remember, don't hate; love, forgive, and forget.

That's all for today, folks.

Preston

Preston takes no responsiblity for anything resembling an actual person in the word of the day.

The Greatest Week Ever

2005-04-10T20:29:00.000-05:00

I would have to say that this week is truly the greatest week ever. I got little to nothing accomplished and I like it. I stayed up late every night and I slept in every morning. It truly could not have gotten any better. Here is the run down for the week after I left:

Wednesday: Spencer and I arrive in Ft. Wayne after Allison and Graham take a two hour detour to Elkhart (gay). Anyway, not more than ten or fifteen minutes after we got there we busted out the video games. First we played Star Wars Battlefront. And awesome game. We beat that by the end of the night, both the Clone War and Galactic Civil War campaigns. We worked very well together no matter what the setting or race. It was beautiful.

Thursday: Our first whole day in Ft. Wayne. I'm ashamed to say it but I have to. You cannot play Xbox without playing Halo: Combat Evolved. And we did. We did it so good too. We sucessfully beat at least 3/4 Halo on Thursday. Towards the end of the day, we busted out some NCAA Football 2005, in which Spencer beat me by mercy rule in the third quarter 42-21; Notre Dame vs. Miami, respectfully. But that's ok cause it was still a pretty cool game.

Earth Will Never Be The Same

Friday: Paige's Birthday, we both wished her a very happy birthday. We finished what we started in Halo. What? What? That's right then we busted out Halo 2. We beat probably about half of the game before we decided to get out Medal of Honor: Rising Sun. We really only beat a few levels of that game before we decided to go to the mall. At the mall we looked at video games, of course. I ended up purchasing Star Wars Republic Commando, the coolest Star Wars game ever.

Your weapon is your team.

In the game you are "Boss" the leader of the four man team known only as Delta squad. Each of your squad memebers has specialties, such as Sev, who is an expert killer and a little bit crazy, or Scorch who is a demolitions expert, and lastly, Fixer, who can get through anything electronic. We are the elite weapon in the Republic's fight against the Seperatist army led by the vicious, General Grievous. It is a really good game and it is a must have. We finished the night up with "Family Movie Night." This basically is where everybody is quiet for a few hours, no matter what, while my Dad watches a movie, you can choose whether or not to participate but you have to be quiet. We watched Elektra. It thought it was a pretty good movie for what it was worth. I kept wanting to watching Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow but people kept giving me the thumbs down.

How much blood would you shed to stay alive?

Saturday: We wake up and finish up Halo 2. It was a good game, cliff hanger ending though. We'll just have to wait until Halo 3. We then both played Republic Commando and fought each other in Halo, Halo 2, and Republic Commando. Spencer lost most if not all of the time but I must say that he did a really good job for not ever playing and/or owning the system. So that's really cool. Later, I rode on David's (my brother) retard bike (moped). It was kind of cool. He freaked out though about it. It was pretty funny. That night we watched Saw, AKA the greatest scary movie ever. I never expected that ending. It's really good for everybody who has not seen it.

Sunday: It was very laid back. We played a few video games, but not a lot, we really didn't even watch TV. We left to go back home at about 2:00 PM so waking up at 11:30 AM didn't leave us much time to get much accomplished. On the way home we talked about Halo and Xbox. And to top it off, we finally got here.

After Spencer left, Number 4 came over for a few hours. She ate and told us about her trip to Florida. It was cool. I am glad that she had fun there. We talked about some stuff and I showed her my costume. She makes my family insane but its all jake so she shouldn't worry about it. And now I am finishing this.

This week was awesome. That is just all there is to it. Why can't all weeks be like that? Who knows but it's pretty gay.

Have a good night everybody.

Preston

Take Place In The Epic Battles...

2005-04-06T21:54:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was pretty cool I guess. I watched The Shield. It was a really good episode, not as good ast 24 but pretty good. I played some video games and that was about the end of my night. O, I talked to Amber on the phone until pretty late. That's cool cause she's a great person to talk to. I got up at 9:43 this morning to get boots for my costume. After I get home, I have to finish packing for my trip with Spencer. That'll be fun (sarcasm about packing). This will probably be my last entry for the week, just to let you all know. I will probably have a monster entry come Sunday though, so beware.

I told you that I keep having this same dream over and over again. It's a good dream, but it is difficult to understand what it means. I am a Jedi in the Clone Wars. We are all there, doing different things, Spencer, Allison, Amber, Paige, everybody. Some Jedi, some Senators, some other things, but we are all there. I cannot really place who I am supposed to be but just when the dream starts to become good I wake up. It is interesting... Meditate on this I will.

Approaching the Storm

I told you guys that I did something on my computer yesterday. Well, as you all know, I love Star Wars. And as you all also know, I am writing a story about us in the 20s. So if you put the two together you get a Star Wars style crawl about that story. I thought it was pretty good stuff. You guys have to imagine the music and the stars behind it. Here you go:

There is unrest between two rival gangs in two distant cities. Several hundred smaller gangs have declared their intentions to leave the dominating gang in New York for the smaller but growing gang in Chicago.

The movement, under the leadership of the mysterious Don Albina, once a member of the New York gang, has made it difficult for the limited number of Capos and their crew to maintain peace and order in the streets of New York.

Capo Amadora is returning to New York to meet with Don Phebe. The Don is expected to make a decision on the critical issue of the gang war and how best to assist the already overwhelmed Capos...

Tell me what you guys think about it. Good or bad, I wanna know. Thanks.

For The Very First Time

Last night, I played yet another video game. It is called Star Wars Battlefront. It's a pretty good game. You get to go by any means to fight in the epic battles that take place in the Star Wars Trilogy. Unfortunately, for me, my teammates thing that is cool to blow me up. Which its not very cool at all. But whatever. Actually, last night they decided not to blow me up. I was awarded Survivalist, Public Enemy, and Dead Eye. It's a good game but way too easy to win. I'll recommend it to any Star Wars fan though.

Have a good day and the rest of the week people. And where's that gravy?

Preston

Side Note

2005-04-05T20:44:00.000-05:00

I have a side note for tonight because I am a little more than pissed off. I hate it that I cannot drive. And some may make jest at that fact, and I may pretend to laugh but that probably pisses me off more than anything on the face of the planet. I am the only person on the face of the planet, over 16, who cannot drive. It's not my mother fucking god damn fault that I cannot drive! It's all my fucking mother's fault because she's stupid. I hate her for it. I cannot stand her for it. And none of you know how many times I have been on the verge of leaving this god forsaken city, all of its shit, and her behind over this issue. And everytime, I look at each and everyone of you, and I don't. I never do. And she knows that. As long as I love you guys I could never leave. But I don't find it funny. Not even a little bit. It's frustrating that she's holding me back because she likes to be a bitch. I swear to God some day she will regret doing shit like this to me, I don't care if she thinks she's doing it because this is how she can be a good mother. Fuck that shit. I don't give a fuck. I really don't. And any of you who are reading this that are even thinking that they are going to challenge me about it I'll say it right now "FUCK OFF!" I'm tired of this shit.

Good, I'm glad that I got that out. And for all of you who do think it's funny. You can fuck off too, cock suckers.

Preston

Ps. Do not get the impression that I do not love my mother. Because that is truly not the case, and some of you know how badly I am scarred due to an unfortunate event with her. Though I do not like most of her decisions, I love her with all of my heart, and would gladly die for her. -PJ

Choose Your Path...

2005-04-05T20:13:00.000-05:00

Last night was pretty cool. I went to Andy's with Spencer, Kevin, David, April, and Josh. It was pretty cool. Just to let all of you guys know, I passed my test. We played video games and watched the final game of the NCAA tournament. UNC won so that was pretty cool. Then we went over to Kevin's house. We played a little poker, a little video games, then we watched After The Sunset. It was a pretty good movie.

Who Will Walk Away?

Then we talked for a little bit. I think we got to sleep somewhere around fiveish. Then Spencer had to wake up at 8:15 so I decided that it would be a good time for me to leave, also. So we pakced our stuff and left. I went back home and took a shower and stuff. Then Bailey, Cameron, and I went to get our pictures taken. That was a seemingly painless experience. After that, we were drug around the city for Cameron's "field trip." We ended up going to the Res. That was kid of cool. I came back home and took another shower because I was dirty. I made some stuff on my computer that I will post tomorrow.

I had an interesting dream last night. It's a repeated one.

After that we came home for a bit. My costume is 93% complete, which is good. Tomorrow it will be 98% complete. My mom and I went looking for boots today. We did not have a lot of luck so that sucked. Then I came home and washed every piece of clothing I own and folded it. During that I watched the Jack Bauer Power Hour also known as 24. It was really, really, really , really, really good. I really don't know what is going to happen next. The Shield is on tonight so that'll be good. I have to wake up early tomorrow morning because Spencer and I are leaving at noon. But that's cool cause we'll get to play lots of video games.

That Of The Dark Or Of The Light?

This Star Wars game is about to get busted into a million pieces and thrown out the window. It is an RPG that has "real time turn based combat." That sounds like an oxymoron to me but whatever. That, actually, is the most frustrating part of the whole game. You start off as any of three different types of people with an infinite about of different attributes. The game takes place thousands of years before the movies even star. As soon as you are in game play your ship is under attack by the Sith. Your job is to try to get Bastilla, a hero Jedi of the Republic, off the ship, while trying to save your own behind. After that shit just falls apart. I would recommend it if you really have nothing to do and need a video game that'll take up hours upon hours of your time.

That is all for me today, folks, have a good day. Where's the gravy (comments)?

Preston

Everything That Has A Beginning...

2005-04-04T13:18:00.000-05:00

Last night was awesome. Amber, Spencer, and I went to TGI Friday's and eventually David came too. We talked and stuff. Then we went back to Amber's and watched Gladiator. Always a good choice. Spencer played Galactican with Kevin. I think they did all right. Then we all went and played pool. Spencer and I won due to David knocking in the 8 ball. So that was a plus. Then we got kicked out of Ambers. All in all it was pretty good stuff. Thanks guys for a good time. I woke up this morning at about 10. That's not bad since I went to be at about 1. So 9 hours is all right. I will probably end up taking a nap some time so it works out.

Spring is my favorite season. It really is. I love to just sit and listen to the rain and thunderstorms. I even love the smell of spring, especially after it has just rained. But unfortunately the smell of spring, to me, leaves me with not such good feelings. It reminds me of a time other than now when I made a mistake. A mistake that if I were to go back in time I would probably fix. I was young then, much younger than I am now, stupid even. If only I knew what the outcome of that mistake was...I guess I do not like the smell of spring. That is too bad, because spring is my favorite season.

...Has An End.

Well, I guess it is time to come to the main point of my entry today. I believe that I can easily predict that some relationships, in the next few months will rise and others will fall. Everything that has a beginning has an end. I do not believe that I should say which I believe will end and rise for fear of jinxing anybody but I am almost certain that it will happen. And if it does not happen than I am happy that I am wrong, for it will make each of our lives a lot easier. Which that is never a bad thing. Some of us will be forced to make some choices that will have good and bad outcomes for different people. Things are going to get mixed up. We should not fear change for it always leads to something new. We must be careful because fearing loss is a most selfish act. Do not mourn themt. Do not miss them. Be happy that they are happy. Attachment leads to jealousy. That is the shadow of greed. Just hang tight guys, this'll be an interesting ride. The tide of the storm is changing. This will be the end ... and the beginning.

Speaking of the beginning...hmm...it seems as if I am meant to be torn in life. I like her but she would never like me in return. I hate it. I cannot stand it. The fact of just not knowing. What to do...What to do....hmm...meditate on this I will. Perhaps in the coming time, when the situation of many begins to change my fate will change.

This is the name of the new Star Wars movie auf Deutsch. I thought it was pretty cool so I put it in. On a lighter note, I got this from Amber's journal. Please fill it out.

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?.

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

Have a good day guys. Where's the comments people?

Preston

Who Will You Be?

2005-04-03T15:00:00.000-05:00

First, correction from yesterday's entry. I believe that Amber's grandfather is undergoing surgery on Tuesday. So again, be sure kept in our thoughts he is.

And onto today:

Yesterday I finished with a lot of video gaming and sleep. It was a good combination. I spoke with Amber for a little bit on the phone before going to sleep for the night. I woke up this morning at seven and went grocery shopping with my mom. Then I came home and took a nap. My outer robe is 100% complete. I agree with Spencer, the Star Wars Celebration III will probably be a lot geekier than Scienve Olympiad but that's ok. I'm only doing it once in my enitre life. So I'm really happy about that. O, and if you remember about the costume yesterday, I put it on today. Cameron flipped out. He would have sworn up and down that I was Emperor Palpatine himself. He was crying and screaming. It was a real knee slapper.

So then yesterday I started to play this game about Star Wars. It's called Dark Brotherhood. Now before you start to think that it is a cult, its not. Basically you are training to become a Dark Jedi. You are a member of a house and a clan. You can be awarded medals and promotions. It's kind of cool. Well, for lack of better things to do I am actively playing. It's really not a bad game to play and I recommend it to anybody who likes Star Wars and is bored.

In The Course Of Life?

I played this game last night called Fable. It is a game about a boy and his family is murdered. So he is forced to live a tough life at a guild, training to become the greatest swordsman ever. But is it for an eye for an eye or for turning the other cheek and helping people? That is for you to decide. Everything is for you to devide. Whether you are good or bad, old or young, fat or muscular, battle hardened or a pussy, that is all reflected in your character's physical appearance. The only complaint I have about the game is that it seems to go quickly. But other than that, all in all it is a really good game that I highly recommend to anybody.

Well, that is all that I have for now. Tomorrow's entry will be a lot more indepth, I promise.

Preston

The Final Four

2005-04-02T15:28:00.000-05:00

THANK GOD, we are finally on spring break. I have been waiting for this for too damn long. Biology yesterday was fun. We had a small little party. Opening the shark was ridiculous cause we have no actual objective. Last night I went with Spencer and his family to Hacienda. It was very tasty. Then about two hours later I went to the mall with Number 4 to return a prom dress and I had to return a shirt. I then bought a strategy guide for a game that I will talk about later. Today I woke up at about 8:30 cause I had to get to the stores early to purchase my lightsaber. The outer robe to my costume is almost complete. Below is a picture of what it should look like when it's done. It's coming together quite nicely. I wanted to shave my head for the Celebration but I decided that Izzy probably would not be too happy about that due to the fact that it is the weekend before prom. O, that reminds me the tickets came in the mail today. So that's cool.

Dark Jedi Robes

I wish each of my friends, Paige, Number 4, and Ericka godspeed on their treks. I hope that each of them has fun...but not too much fun. I will b looking forward to seeing them on Sunday. For those of us that are staying here, that's cool too. Spencer and I will be leaving on Wednesday at some point in time.

The Pope, died today, I think that is worthy of a mention. God bless his soul. Speaking of blessings, Amber's grandfather is having bypass surgery on the heart on Monday. Though I know by the good graces of God he will recover in short time, in my prayers both he and Amber will be.

Doesn't Matter To Me

The final four starts today in St. Louis. It really does not matter to a lot of people that are in the MHS Mayhem bracket pool because most of us do not have a chance of winning. Especially, I who have 0 teams left in the running. That's cool. It was fun while it lasted. I think that I am going to get going for now.

Comments, lets see 'em! Have a good day and start of break guys!

Preston

Why Save The World...

2005-04-01T13:14:00.000-05:00

I came to school today and went upstairs to see Mrs. Flora. We talked about the test. I would later find out that it would not help. Then I went to German, which was boring and gay, as usual. After that it was "The Old Man's Class", as Paige puts so nicely. It was boring too. He tried to teach but failed miserably. It is all right though cause I really didn't want to try to learn. Then I came to math. Problems one through six were a breeze. Problem seven was satan's spawn. It was the worst math problem ever and I am almost certain that I got it wrong. Then I am going to go to Mr. Man's Bio class. He is absent today (YES!!), so Spencer and I are in charge (YES!!^2). That class is going to be boring too though but at least Izzy has brought snacks for us to eat.

...When You Can Rule It?

Thank God spring break is finally here. I have been waiting for this for too damn long. I do not know what I am going to do this weekend. Probably play some video games, like the one featured above. I am just happy that I get to relax and do nothing. It brings me great satisfaction to know this. Spencer and I are leaving on Wenesday so that'll be fun. Some hardcore gaming will be going on. For Xbox fans, I always have to say, not a lot of Halo will be happening. God, some people are so obsessed with that game I don't even want to play it.

Goldeneye

The game I do like to play, however, but am getting beaten at is Goldeneye. It's a cool game about a 00 agent who has been relieved from his duty at MI6 and goes to work for none other than Goldfinger. His name is Goldeneye because of the eye replacement, curitosy of Fransico Scaramenga, AKA The Man With The Golden Gun. It has some cool abilities. As of right now, I'm getting butt fucked by the Omen, a device that can eat through your flesh and only takes one shot to kill. Other than that my gaming experience is all good.

That brings me to a good point. Spencer and I were talking yesterday and today and if we could take a class in video gaming we would be all over the place. 4.0 here we come. That's the school I need to find.

Well, that's all I have for now. Maybe more later. Maybe not. Who knows?

Preston

Marvel At Our Greatness...

2005-03-31T16:04:00.000-05:00

I have difficulty understanding something? And maybe one of you can help me out. Why does school suck so much? Day after day, time and time again, its terrible. Its relentlessly boring. I could probably actually, I know I could, teach myself better than most teachers can teach me at that school. Now, I know this is not true for some of the teachers, but it so for most. It's just ridiculous and I am tired of it.

Today I went to school, again. I went to Pre-cal and learned some stuff on top of the stuff I already do not understand. Seminar wasn't fun because Mr. Beam is a dick. He whined at me that I am never happy with anything. That is because the school is crap and does not meet even the lowest of standards. But whatever, fuck him. (Probably shouldn't say that cause I think he's gay.) O well, then I went to lunch. Lunch is a mediocre time because it always feels that two people want to talk about something but they cannot due to the other people that are at the table. So that sucks. I did wish Isabel a happy birthday, very nice on the snacks. So then we had Anatomy. Which was gay cause we took an eye test which I missed at least three questions because Mr. Hildreth cannot teach. He pretended to teach, again, but failed so popped in a movie instead. That's ok cause I didn't want to pretend to learn, again. So then we got into English. I did a lot better than I thought I would. I do wish to express my appologies to the sixth block class that failed miserably. Sorry guys. Then I came home.

I do want to declare, though, that our class is especially unique. 35+ years ago, when our parents went to high school, they were the beginning of a new generation, stemming from the old generation that prospered as baby boomers. Now that era is complete, with us. We are the pinnacle of this generation. We are the most refined, the most respectable, the most intelligent. We are the best of the best. We can play the game longer, harder, and better than any in this generation that have come before us. I believe that we should marvel in our greatness and weep for those that come after us. We are the turning point for this generation. For the ones to follow us, they forge a new generation of sluts, whores, pimps, and bitches. Preoccupied with sex, alcohol, and drugs, they are forced to sludge through the mud in which was laid before them to clear the way for others in their generation, just as our parents had to for the generations that followed them, and evenutally, us. Their morals and values are completely lost altogether. Nor do they care, they have accepted their ways in life, though I believe it is because of the lack of fundamentaly beliefs in faith, that is neither here nor there. Let us keep this in mind, as we complete our high school careers and move on to new endeavors.

As mentioned earlier, about my mock epic/satrical story, there are three in the works right now. For the one I am working on currently, it will take place in the 1920s and involve the mafia. But I have not really said a whole lot about the other two. The first, covering eighth grade to the end of freshmen year, which will eventually span over five parts and five hundred pages, takes place in a fictional medieval times. The picture of the Knight above is what I have imaged the antagonist of the story to look like. You know, dark and scary, because that is his part. And the second story, covering three parts and three hundred pages, is of my sophmore year to the beginning of my junior year. It takes place in a fictional futuristic setting. Because it is an epic it would only be right to have battles. The second picture is what I used to envision my landing transports for soldiers, vehicles, and supplies. I'll end up telling you guys all of it at a later date. But that is all I have for now.

For some of you who feel that my posts are "inspirational" you are anything but funny. Though the comment is appreciated, I would be happier with something of more...value. Thank you. But mainly, comment people!

Well, I hope that all of you will have a good night and I will see you tomorrow.

Preston

Pay No Attention...

2005-03-30T20:27:00.000-05:00

So today I went to school. I did my math homework when I got there. I got laughed at by Allison for not knowing how to do something. Then I went to German. That class is seriously going to down the pooper. I guess it's kind of getting better but not by a lot. Spencer and I got a 100 on our Reise Nach Europa, not that I expected anything less. Then we went to History and took that stupid test. It was all too easy. Then math was pretty cool. I understand what we're doing and that makes me feel good about the test. Because I have to get a 100 on the test in order to get a B in the class. So that sucks. Then I went to Biology. That class sucks, as always. That test was really, really easy. I thought it was going to be tough or something. We started the shark, which was ridiculous. We cut it open and then threw it back from which it came. It was dumb. I hate that class. As a matter of fact, I hate school. If it wasn't for you guys, I wouldn't go, just to let you know.

To That Man Behind The Curtain

As most of you know, I recently completed the mock epic/satirical story of my sophomore year to the beginning of my junior year. It spans over three hundred pages and lays in three parts. My mock epic/satrical story of eight grade and freshmen year is still in the work shop, being revised. It should be done over the summer. It should spread through five parts and over five hundred pages. My next project, however, is to transcribe the remainder of my junior year. Depending on how life plays out, depends the number of parts, but as of now I am planning of two and then starting my senior year. In this version of my high school career the time period is the 1920s and our group of friends= the new york mafia, hence the logo above (no that's not the name of it, I never choose the name until the end of writing). It should be interesting. I'll keep you all updated.

I would appreaciate more comments people! Have a good night, all of you (some more than others).

Preston

Dawn of the Dead

2005-03-29T21:05:00.000-05:00

We'll get to the weird part later. Today was all right. I went to school with Allison and ate breakfast with Spencer, Amber, and Allison. Then I went to crappy Pre-cal. Then in Seminar we celebrated Mrs. Flora's birthday. She did that whole frown thing, trying not to smile. It was great. Props to Spencer and Andy. Then Anatomy was gay, as usual. Guess what guys? That's right, I have another anatomy test this week! Hot DAMN! Anyway, then I took the English test of death. It was terrible. Nothing she told us to study for was on it. GAY.

So then I had this weird dream last night. A bunch of people were walking down the street towards the Batell Center from John Young on Main. We get by the cemetery about a block before the railroad tracks and there's this bathroom and somebody points inside. I looked at it and there's dirt going into the bathroom. Then out of the bathroom a man comes out looking very similar to the one above carrying a toliet. He came at me with the toliet and threw it on the ground and started to chase me. It was scary, really. When I woke up it took me a while to figure out it was a dream.

Well, that's all I have for today. Tomorrow's will be longer, promise. Comments people!

Preston

Duel of the Fates

2005-03-28T22:54:00.000-05:00

Last night I had this awesome dream. It started like by the pool doors the school. And I guess there was a group of us leaving or something and there he was like this dark figure. I don't really remember who all was there, I think it was like Amber, Paige, Allison and stuff. And then Spencer and I step from behind them and we're like "We'll take care of this." And then we draw out our lightsabers, and he draws his. Now, this dark figure, I know is somebody I know but I'm not sure who he is. But anyway, so we fight him and stuff. We basically go through most of the school. He fights us back through the commons and up the stairs.

We fight through the science wing and back through the main hall upstairs. Then we take a turn to the gym. I don't really remember the dream after that. I just remember that it is pretty cool.

That is all I have for today people.

Preston

Begun the friend war has...

2005-03-26T12:47:00.002-05:00

Report to Friends

wow...the last few days have been something else. As I said last time, my tracking of the bounty hunter has not gone well. I have tracked him to Geonosis where the reception was anything but warm. I have managed to track him to the count and I have sent my report to back to Coruscant.

Captured by the Count

Unfortunately, after I sent my report on the activities happening on Geonosis, the droid foundaries and such, I was captured by the Count himself. Tried to turn me the Count did. Tempting me by telling me how corrupt the cause was. I was not about to fall for that trick

First Battle Fought

And then the rescue came. On Thursday night, the same night in which I was captured, the war started. Bloody it was, yes, but necessary only due to the silence that has been.

The Fight with the Count

Even Spencer had a duel with the Count himself. Though the Count stuck his tail between his legs as he ran, I thought it was a victory for us. For all that we fight for.

Preparing for a Full Scale War

And then I was informed on how great of a war this was actually going to be. I finally realized what I had been trying to stop. And then I figured out that it was too late. The shroud of the dark side has fallen, begun this friend war has...

The Patillo Doctrine

2005-03-24T16:00:00.000-05:00

Because of the issue at hand, I have assumed a full power and instructions have been transmitted to me to try to help the situation by amicable negotiation the respective rights and interests of the two friends in question. In the discussions to which this interest has given rise and in the arrangements by which they may terminate the occasion has been judged proper for asserting, as a principle in which the rights and condition which they have assumed and maintained, are henceforth two friends should not be subject to the repercussions of other friends unless that friendship openly desires it so. And, furthermore, it is not only the right but it is also the duty of any and all friends to try to help one another no matter what the cause.

It was stated in the past that a great effort was then making in the relationship between the two friends in question, Allison and Amber, to improve the condition of that friendship, and it appeared to be conducted with extraordinary moderation. It need scarcely be remarked that the results have been so far very different from what was and still is anticipated. Of the events between friends, with which I have so much intercourse and from which I stem many of my own friendships from, I have always been anxious and interested spectators. I cherish the sentiments the most friendly in favor of liberty and happiness in all of my friends and their friendships as well. In the wars fought between friendships in matters relating to yourselves I have tried to never take part in, nor does it comport with my policy to do so. It is only when my rights are invaded or seriously menaced that I resent injuries or make preparation for my defense. With the recent actions between my friends I am of necessity more immediately connected even if it is indirectly, and by causes which must be obvious to all enlightened and impartial observers. The systems in which the two in question have addressed the situation are different from the tactics of my own. This difference proceeds from that which exists in their policy of silence and choosing ignorance to avoid the problem; and to the defense of my own, which has been achieved by the loss of so much honor and respect, and matured by the wisdom over time, and under which I have enjoyed unexampled felicity, I am devoted. I owe it, therefore, to candor and to consider any attempt on their part to fix the situation at hand and to secure our overall peace and safety. With the nonexistent problems within friendships I have not interfered and shall not interfere. But with those who are having difficulties that intrude on my personal well being it can only be interpreted as nothing but anything other light than as the manifestation of an unfriendly disposition toward me. In the battle between Allison and Amber I declared neutrality at the time of their recognition, and to this we have adhered, and shall continue to adhere, provided no change shall occur which, in the judgment of the competent authorities of friends, shall make a corresponding change on the part of myself and/or others indispensable to our security.

The late events involving Allison, Amber, and Paige are still unsettled. Of this important fact no stronger proof can be adduced than that the friends should have thought it proper, on any principle satisfactory to them, to have interposed by force in the internal concerns of all involved. To what extent such interposition may be carried, on the same principle, is a question in which all friendships interests differ from one another, even those most remote from another friendship, and surely none of them more so than myself. My policy in regard to all other friendships, which was adopted at an early stage of this crisis which has long agitated all of us, nevertheless remains the same, which is, to avoid conflict in these final months that we have together and to not interfere in the concerns of other friendships; to consider all friendships, no matter who involved; to cultivate friendly relations with all, and to preserve those relations by a frank, firm, and manly policy, meeting in all instances the just claims of every friendship, submitting to injuries from none. But in regard to theses friendships whose circumstances are eminently and conspicuously different.

It is impossible that our friendships should extend into any portion of any other friendships without endangering our peace and happiness with other; nor can anyone believe that our fellow brethren, if left to them, cannot solve a situation on their own. It is equally impossible, therefore, that we should behold such interposition in any form with indifference. If we look to the comparative strength hand resources of all of our friendships, and their distance from each other, it must be obvious that the affects on the one should not have repercussions that echo violently on the other. It is still the true policy of me to leave the parties to themselves, in hope that the other friendships will pursue the same course, in order to avoid as much conflict as possible in the few months we still have left. But it will also remain the policy of myself that if I have the right not to be affected by other friendships and that in the same I have the right and the duty to of any and all friends to try to help one another no matter what the cause. And I also, hereby declare, that any and all who see a wrong being commited and do not bring it to ones attention is no better than the wrongdoer himself.

Therefore it is my right as a friend to get involved in another friendship if it affects me. It is also my right and duty to hope that two friends will work the situation out if left alone. I ask Allison and Amber to speak with each other about their differences and settle them. I ask any and all who have problems to do so. In these few months in which we still have left with each other, let us remember the best of times that we have had together. And let us create new ones. Let us seal these cracks that are tearing through us. We forget that we will not have each other forever to argue with and to fight with. We forget that we will not have each other forever to laugh and to cry with. We must make these last few months together the absolute best. So I am asking you, no, I am begging each and every one of you to put down your arms, throw aside your differences and come together to make these last months the ones to remember.

Preston Patillo

Declaration of Ignorance

2005-03-23T17:00:00.000-05:00

I ask each and every one of you to read what I have to say and consider it carefully. It is only the same in which I would do for you. Please post your opinion and/or add your signature. Thank you for your time.

Declaration of Ignorance

When in the Course of human events, it becomes necessary for one people to point out instances to those that are closely connected to them that are wrong. It is only necessary that a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to point out this ignorance.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all friends, when too ignorant to clearly see the truths laid before them that they are to be told by their fellow friends as a duty to them. Each friend has certain inalienable rights which are the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. As a group of friends, it is only in their duty to help secure these rights at all times. That whenever a friend strays away from the path of the righteous and down the path which is dark, it is only the duty of the other friends to rectify the problem by pointing out their flaws as if only to help rescue that friend from their own demise. Whenever any action becomes destructive as to the ends of these certain rights it is the right of the fellow friends to alter or abolish the problem and to institute a new path onto which this friend is to follow by laying its foundation on such principles. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that friendships long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shown, that certain friends are more likely to suffer, while these evils are taking place, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute ignorance of the problem, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such problems, and to provide new guard for their future security. Such has been the patient sufferance of these friendships among us; and such is now the necessity which constrains me to try to alter the problem at hand. The history of the one that is the cause of all problems in these friendships has an obvious history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of manipulation over these friendships. To prove this, let facts be submitted to you all.

He has directly or indirectly affected all friendships in which we are a witness to, for better, but mostly for worse.

He has habitually claimed to like one who will remain unnamed but has been with another.

He has acted on these emotions while being with that other.

He has continually made mistakes in which the repercussions echo violently in our everyday lives, forcing us to such measures as these.

He has started many arguments, leaving us to fight amongst ourselves.

He has torn friendships that have repeated stood the test of time in two.

He has used and abused friends at his own will by being “friends” one minute and throwing that “friend” away the minute another comes by.

He has little to no understanding of the repercussions of his actions in our every day lives due to the fact that he does not have to endure them.

He has little to no caring of the repercussions, oppressions, and suffering that he causes in our everyday lives due to the fact that he does not have to endure them.

He is a social outcast who is, therefore, forced to be with those of our age.

He is an arrogant, horny pervert who only thinks in sexual connotations.

He has more time on his hands than he knows what to do with, therefore he can easily play any game/person at anytime he wishes.

He believes that he owns some of us, and is right, only due to the ignorance within.

He will continue to manipulate each and every one of us until the issue is brought up by all.

In every stage of these oppressions we have asked for our friends to redress in the most humble terms but our asking have only been answered only by repeated injury. A prince whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a manipulator, is unfit to be a friend of any of my fellow friends.

Nor have we been wanting in attentions to my friends. We do not wish to make any of you angry or disgruntled. We only wish to bring this issue to your attention to hold us together as friends. We have reminded you of the circumstances of what we are enduring time and time again. But you too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, pronounce that any and all who do not have a desire in which to rectify the situation are truly lost to the cause and the under an ignorant spell in which He has put you under and we am truly sorry for your trance.

We, therefore, the friend of all of you, appealing to each of you, as judges of all of our friendships, in the name and by the authority of ourselves as your true friends, solemnly publish and declare that we are asking that each of you shed your ignorance and that our friendships are, and of right ought to be free and independent friendships; that they are absolved from all allegiance to Ryan Lester; and that all connection between him and ourselves is and ought to be totally dissolved, due to his repeated abuses to us as friends. And for the support of this declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of our friendships, we pledge our lives, our fortunes, and our sacred honor.

Signatures:

Spencer Patterson
Preston Patillo

What If Life Was A Movie??

2005-03-22T22:59:00.000-05:00

Movie Reel

What if life was a movie? Just high school even. I'm serious people too. I want some input. What if life was a movie? What would the trailer be like? How many would there be? One for each year? What would the titles be? Who would act in them? I mean play each person? (They have to be a famous person). I don't know. That's an interesting question. I'm looking for lots of comments people.

School was boring today. Good job on the test today, Amber and Wendy. Both get props. Very nice. Other than that school still sucks.

Good night people.

Preston.

The Phoenix Forever Rises

Finally...

I'm Leaving...

I'm Back!!!

D-Day...

Vaca...

New...

Missing...

I'm sorry...

The First Fifteen...

The Don Is...

Some More...Some More...

Some More...

One More Day...

More...

BIRTHDAY!!!

As Things Roll To A Stop...

Yesterday...

Survey...again...

Survey...

Quiz...

Your #1 Match: ENFP

Your #2 Match: ENTP

Your #3 Match: ENFJ

Your #4 Match: INFP

Your #5 Match: ENTJ

Fast Food. High Times.

Three Heroes. One Enemy. All Action.

All Of The Jedi Action...

Torn...

Beautiful...

Finally!!!

Ugh...

Tuesday...

A New Week...

I'm So Fucking Tired...

Interesting...

The Keys to Your Heart

Last Night Was...

Thank you...

Help...

Sad...

Wow...

Time Is Up...

After Action Report...

We've Reached It...

It's Coming...

Today...

Happy Birthday!!!

Tired of it...

Would You Like To Take A Survey...

Today was good...

My Name Is Federal Agent Jack Bauer...

Fire Drill Mania

I Want More...

Ghost Of You...

Trip...

Earth...

State Of The Prom

I Am The Senate...

DST Issues

I Sense Something...

Over This War Is Not

Your Destinies Lie Along A Different Path Than Mine...

The Party Of A Life Time

Tonight...

Fear The Wrath Of God...

M*I*S*H Gives A D*A*M*N

It's In The Wind...

Congrats...

Even More Quizzes...

Today...

more quizes...

Unexpected Death...

Taking From Amber's...

A Change...

All I Ask Of You...

What A Day...

A Comedy Straight From The Heart

Revenge

MISH Gives A DAMN