Life Sucks

It kind of does right now. I know that the suffering that I am meant to endure is only because of the karma that I, myself, has chosen. In hind sight, as always, I find that some of the paths that I have chosen are not some of the best. It is too late now to turn back from the path in which I am on but I can hope to find a break in the path that may lead to another more prosperous one. Until then I am meant to endure this endeavor set upon me and I accept it so.

I have set into a depression stage. I have not been genuinely happy for quite some time now. I believe it is mostly due to the loneliness in life. Is it wrong to want to be happy? To be loved? Evidentally it is a crime in my case that is punishable with a life time of a sunken state in which all good feelings are sucked from your body altogether. Who knows?

Also...also does it not suck when the person in which you most want to be with is right there and yet you cannot hold her...or touch her? Or kiss her?

I'm going to go bask in my own pitty for the night.

-Preston