After Action Report...

Last night (prom) was not as bad as it could have been. Diner took way too long to get to us. That pissed me off more than anything about the whole night. All in all I was pretty happy. I hope everybody had a good time. All of the ladies looked stunning. Thank you each for the dances. Spencer's B-day party at the end was fun. Happy B-Day, Pat.

I had a relapse in the middle of prom. Broke down when I got home. Feel like dying now. I hate it. I just want to be loved again. Why is that so wrong?

Suicide Is Painless

Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat.

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.

Tired of doing this.

Preston out