All I Ask Of You...

From The Phantom Of The Opera

RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.
Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .
Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .

BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .

RAOUL
You know I do . . .

BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .

I'm feeling a lot right now. I am very confused. Maybe that sums up how I'm feeling.
I don't know.

Preston

What A Day...

Today I woke up at a beautiful nine o'clock. I had to be at work at 9:30 so that was exciting. I was there until about oneish. Then Allison and I went to Mancino's and ate. After that we went to the tennis courts to watch Spencer, Andy, and Isabel play. We left soon after that and went back to Allison's house. We sat outside her house and talked a bit. This big dog came and scared the shit out of Allison's dog. That was kind of funny.

In search of wine. In search of women. In search of themselves.

Then we went inside and watched Sideways. I thought that it was a good movie but Allison did not. She claims that I didn't like it either because I fell asleep but actually I have already seen it so that's all right. Soon after that I came home and talked to my mom and stuff. Then I started to watch another movie.

The Only Way Out Is Up

Then I watched a remake of the 1965 version of Flight of the Phoenix. It was all right. I think I like it better than the one that we saw in seventh grade. But there were some things that upset me about it. Other than that I have not done a whole lot today.

The following I took from Spencer's journal.

------------ FAV0RITES ------------------
[x] Shamp0o: I don't care but they have to match.
[x] Fav C0lor(s): black, blue, and red
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: spring (thought I really don't have that as a choice)
---------------- RIGHT N0W ------------------
[x] Right N0w Wearing: shorts and a t-shirt
[x] Drinking: OJ
[x] Thinking Ab0ut: People, the future, Amber
[x] Listening T0: Angel of Music from The Phantom of the Opera soundtrack
---------------- IN THE LAST 24 HRS ----------------
[x] Cried: no
[x] W0rn Jeans: yeah
[x] D0ne Laundry: no
[x] Dr0ve a Car: ridden in one
----------------- D0 YOU BELIEVE IN ----------------
[x] Y0urself: at times
[x] Your Friends: always
[x] Santa Claus: nope
[x] T0oth Fairy: no
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes, if anybody wants to get into this more with me, I'd be more than happy to.
[x] Angels: yes
[x] Gh0sts: yea, I'd have to
[x] UF0's: Is this really something to believe in?
[x] G0d: I have to
---------------- FRIENDS AND LIFE ----------------
[x] D0 you ever wish you had an0ther name?: Yes: Preston
[x] D0 you have a girlfriend/b0yfriend?: no
[x] D0 you like any0ne?: of course
[x] Which 0ne of y0ur friends acts the most like y0u?: spencer...Mr. Man quote "It's a 2 for 1!" (thanks for the answer Spencer)
[x] Are y0u close to any family member?: no, they're nuts but I guess it'd have to be my dad if I had to choose
[x] What's the best feeling in the w0rld?: success
[x] W0rst feeling?: not having control; being alone
[x] What time is it n0w?: 10:01 PM

---------------- ALL AB0UT YOU ----------------
Shouldn't this have been the first section? Out of order!
[x] Name: Patillo, Preston James
[x] Birth Date: June 2, 1988
[x] Current L0cation: Mishawaka, IN
[x] Eye C0lor: dark brown
[x] Hair C0lor: dark brown
[x] Righty or Lefty: righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: gemini
---------------- 0N THE INSIDE ----------------
[x] Y0ur Heritage: either irish or italian, my father is looking into that
[x] Sh0es you w0re today?: my vans and sandals
[x] Y0ur Weakness: I don't hold a grudge
[x] Y0ur Fears: not being in control; being alone
[x] Your Perfect Pizza: everything except anchovies and pineapple
[x] G0al You'd Like to Achieve: Become the Preisdent of the United States
---------------- YESTERDAY, T0DAY, TOM0RROW ----------------
[x] Your Most 0verused Phrase: but whatever
[x] Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Fuck!
[x] Your Best Physical Feature: yeah good one.
[x] Your Bedtime: anytime; usually between 11 and 12
[x] Your M0st Missed Memory: Freshman year
[x]Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: pass
---------------- Y0UR PICK----------------
[x] Pepsi or C0ke: neither I can't have pops
[x] McD0nald's or Burger King: McDonalds
[x] Single or Gr0up Dates: single
[x] Adidas or Nike: neither I like vans
[x] Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton all the way
[x] Chocolate or Vanilla: twist
[x] Cappuccin0 or C0ffee: frappucino
---------------- D0 YOU? ----------------
[x] Sm0ke?: no
[x] Cuss: yea, should probably stop
[x] Single: yes
[x] Take a Sh0wer: yea
[x] Have a Crush: of course
[x] Think Y0u've Been in Love: yeah yeah
[x] Like(d) High Sch0ol: yea but this year is in the pooper
[x] Want to get Married: yea
[x] Get M0tion Sickness: no
[x] Think Y0u're a Health Freak: i don't like other people's germs that I don't know
[x] Get Along With Your Parents: 50/50
[x] Play an Instrument: clarinet and piano
[x] Sing: yea, when I'm alone
[x]Like Thunderstorms: they're fun to listen to
---------------- IN THE PAST M0NTH ----------------
[x] Drank Alc0hol: no
[x] G0ne on a Date: no
[x] G0ne to the Mall: yes I love the mall, when I have money to buy something
[x] Been on Stage: no
[x] Eaten an Entire B0x of Oreos: no
[x] Eaten Sushi: no
[x] Been Dumped: no
[x] G0ne Skating: no
[x] G0ne Skinny Dipping: no
[x] Dyed Y0ur Hair: no
[x] St0len Anything: no
---------------- EVER? ----------------
[x] Played a Game that Required Rem0val of Clothing: gunna have to say no
[x] Been Trashed or Extremely Int0xicated: no
[x] Been Caught "D0ing S0mething": not that I can remember
[x] Been Called a Tease: actually, yes
[x] G0tten Beaten Up: no
[x] Changed Wh0 You Were To Fit In: we all wear masks at times
---------------- GETTING 0LDER----------------
[x] Age Y0u Hope t0 be Married: yes
[x] H0w do Y0u Want to Die?: I want to be shot
[x] What do Y0u Want to be when Y0u Grow Up?: Lawyer/President/Writer/Director/Nobel Prize Winner...
[x] What C0untry(ies) would Y0u Most Like to Visit?: I want to go back home to Italy.
------------ IN A GIRL? ----------------
[x] Best eye c0lor?: blue or brown
[x] Best hair c0lor?: blonde or brunette
[x] Sh0rt or L0ng Hair: long
[x] Height: mine
[x] Articles 0f Clothing: I'd have to see about that one...
---------------- IN THE NUMBERS ----------------
[x] Number 0f people I c0uld trust with my life?: very few, maybe 5
[x] Number 0f CD's I own?: 30+
[x] Number 0f piercing?: 0
[x] Number 0f tatto0s?: 0
[x] Number 0f times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: about 6-10 times
[x] Number 0f scars on my b0dy?: 1
[x] Number 0f things in my past that I regret?: 1
[x] Number of Drugs you have taken: 0

I have a lot to say but I am unsure of how to say it. I will say that what I have on my mind has a lot to do with Amber. I just don't know how to say it or what to say I guess. Maybe more later.

Have a good night, guys.

Preston

A Comedy Straight From The Heart

Last night was pretty fun. It started with going with Izzy to see her dress. It looks very nice and I am almost positive that it'll go with my tie. Then we went to Bonnie Doon's and ate. After that we went to Kohl's where Izzy shopped in which seemed like forever. Allison met us out there and we visited Old Navy, Shoe Carnival, and Dick's (odd ball there). After that we drove around for a bit but then decided to go back to my house to pick up a movie. We brought I <3> and Sideways but when we got there we didn't watch either of the two.

We actually ended up watching Return to Me. This is a movie that I have had to have seen at least three times now with Allison. But it was all right another time around. It is good that I forget what happens so its like a new movie every time. We had a giant pillow fight and then went home. Then I talked to Allison and Spencer before going to bed at a nice 12:30 AM. And now I'm here.

I have to say something to all that read my journal. Please do not read anything and take it personally or assume anything. If you have a question about anything on my journal I would be more than happy to discuss it with you via the comment section here or in a private IM. There has just been too many incidents recently where people read my journal in the wrong context because they assume and take it personally. I am sorry for all who commit this act. Again, just talk to me.

Have a good day, guys.

Preston

Revenge

Revenge

Initiating....

Access Granted....

Welcome to Operation P 5....

Status.....

Phase I is 85% complete....

"At last we will reveal ourselves....at last we will have revenge."

Preston

uhhh...

After my post yesterday I have nothing.

I am considering changing the name of my journal. I am open to suggestions guys.

Have a good night.

Preston

My love for you is secret ...

My love for you is secret
I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart

Preston(sigh)

Quiz

I made a quiz instead of an entry for today.

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050412230320-67385

Have fun people.

Preston

Very Interesting...

The word of today is: love. Love is a very interesting word. It can be both a noun and a verb.
The meaning of love is strong affection for another arising out of kinship and affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests . Now let us examine this. Based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests meaning that those who wish to work together, look up to one another, or are friendly towards each other love each other. Through our relationships with other people, mainly our friendships, and even, though rare, our enemies, we admire them as brothers and sister and form a bond so tight that we begin to love them. We begin to develop deep emotional attachement to them. We should love everybody. Loving makes the days go by so much better. Love makes us whole. Love makes us more powerful than hate ever could. We should all love. I love you, brothers and sisters.

Though my entry yesterday was not directed at anybody specifically, it seems as if a certain person felt that it was. I will not say that I am sorry for it because I am not. I clearly stated that it was just a coincidence if that was the case. But again, somebody felt that it was about them. I take no responsiblity if this one person, who is without name, due to his/her fear. As we addressed yesterday, fear is part of the definition of hate. I could retaliate by writing something nasty, but I will not. I refuse to. I will be the bigger person and hold out the olive branch to who ever the one (though we all know who he/she is) to build a possible friendship and ultimately prosper. Let it be known that I have no harsh feelings for this person, whoever he/she is. My heart is filled with love. I am forgiving that person for their words of hatred and forgetting about it. I only welcome them with open arms. I feel that we could each accomplish all in which we are trying so hard to achieve if we work together, in our common interests. Whether or not he/she chooses to accept is merely up to them and they will not be judged either way. Though you hate me, I will still call you brother and I will love you. So please, take my hand, brother, and come with me to promised land in which we each wish so hard to see.

Do not forget to spread the love.

That is all for the time being, brothers and sisters.

Preston

Preston takes no responsiblity for anything resembling an actual person in the word of the day.

Back To The Old...

Slave Ship

Today was a great day back at the slave ship. It was terrible. I hate it there I really do. After school, I had to go to a meeting and then I went with Number 4 to Wal-Mart and out to eat. That was pretty fun.

I believe it is necessary to pull out the word of the day. The word of the day is: hate. Hate is an interesting word. It can be used as both a noun and a verb. Its meaning is intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injury. Now this is interesting. Hate derives from those three things. Hmmm.... there are some that hate me. For those people perhaps they sense that I have injured them in some way or perhaps it is because they are angry at me. Perhaps it is all of them. But most likely, it is fear in which makes them hate me. Fear that I am stronger than them. Fear that I am smarter than them. Fear that I am faster than them. Fear that I am better than them in every way, shape, or form. Now fear, which leads to anger, which leads to hate, which we have discussed and that leads to something else: suffering. Suffering on all parties involved with the one filled with hatred. Suffering in anger of never being able to actually touch the one in which they hate. It is a terrible fate to suffer. Really, it is. Now, being the nice person that I am am going to sincerly appologize to all that hate me.

Dear All Who Hate Me:

I am sorry that you are afraid that I can kick your ass. I am sorry that you are angry that you're a bastard. I am sorry that you hate that I'm better than you. And I am most definitely sorry that you are suffering because your bitch of a mother decided to conceive you.

Sincerly,
Preston

And that ends our word for the day. Now remember, don't hate; love, forgive, and forget.

That's all for today, folks.

Preston

Preston takes no responsiblity for anything resembling an actual person in the word of the day.

The Greatest Week Ever

I would have to say that this week is truly the greatest week ever. I got little to nothing accomplished and I like it. I stayed up late every night and I slept in every morning. It truly could not have gotten any better. Here is the run down for the week after I left:

Wednesday: Spencer and I arrive in Ft. Wayne after Allison and Graham take a two hour detour to Elkhart (gay). Anyway, not more than ten or fifteen minutes after we got there we busted out the video games. First we played Star Wars Battlefront. And awesome game. We beat that by the end of the night, both the Clone War and Galactic Civil War campaigns. We worked very well together no matter what the setting or race. It was beautiful.

Thursday: Our first whole day in Ft. Wayne. I'm ashamed to say it but I have to. You cannot play Xbox without playing Halo: Combat Evolved. And we did. We did it so good too. We sucessfully beat at least 3/4 Halo on Thursday. Towards the end of the day, we busted out some NCAA Football 2005, in which Spencer beat me by mercy rule in the third quarter 42-21; Notre Dame vs. Miami, respectfully. But that's ok cause it was still a pretty cool game.

Earth Will Never Be The Same

Friday: Paige's Birthday, we both wished her a very happy birthday. We finished what we started in Halo. What? What? That's right then we busted out Halo 2. We beat probably about half of the game before we decided to get out Medal of Honor: Rising Sun. We really only beat a few levels of that game before we decided to go to the mall. At the mall we looked at video games, of course. I ended up purchasing Star Wars Republic Commando, the coolest Star Wars game ever.

Your weapon is your team.

In the game you are "Boss" the leader of the four man team known only as Delta squad. Each of your squad memebers has specialties, such as Sev, who is an expert killer and a little bit crazy, or Scorch who is a demolitions expert, and lastly, Fixer, who can get through anything electronic. We are the elite weapon in the Republic's fight against the Seperatist army led by the vicious, General Grievous. It is a really good game and it is a must have. We finished the night up with "Family Movie Night." This basically is where everybody is quiet for a few hours, no matter what, while my Dad watches a movie, you can choose whether or not to participate but you have to be quiet. We watched Elektra. It thought it was a pretty good movie for what it was worth. I kept wanting to watching Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow but people kept giving me the thumbs down.


How much blood would you shed to stay alive?

Saturday: We wake up and finish up Halo 2. It was a good game, cliff hanger ending though. We'll just have to wait until Halo 3. We then both played Republic Commando and fought each other in Halo, Halo 2, and Republic Commando. Spencer lost most if not all of the time but I must say that he did a really good job for not ever playing and/or owning the system. So that's really cool. Later, I rode on David's (my brother) retard bike (moped). It was kind of cool. He freaked out though about it. It was pretty funny. That night we watched Saw, AKA the greatest scary movie ever. I never expected that ending. It's really good for everybody who has not seen it.

Sunday: It was very laid back. We played a few video games, but not a lot, we really didn't even watch TV. We left to go back home at about 2:00 PM so waking up at 11:30 AM didn't leave us much time to get much accomplished. On the way home we talked about Halo and Xbox. And to top it off, we finally got here.

After Spencer left, Number 4 came over for a few hours. She ate and told us about her trip to Florida. It was cool. I am glad that she had fun there. We talked about some stuff and I showed her my costume. She makes my family insane but its all jake so she shouldn't worry about it. And now I am finishing this.

This week was awesome. That is just all there is to it. Why can't all weeks be like that? Who knows but it's pretty gay.

Have a good night everybody.

Preston