Wars Come And Go

The Army A Masses

You have embarked upon the Great Crusade, toward which we have striven these many years. The eyes of the world are upon you. Many of us have developed friendships that run more than skin deep. Many of us have friendships that are so deep the blood has fused together. We are in the midst of the greatest war to plague mankind. This is a war and we are soldiers. Death can come for us at any time, in any place. Pawns to the great crimson covered battlefield. I know that I am a soldier to time. I get in line and I salute. All of our lives, we have fought this war. We will continue to fight this war until the very end of our lives. But we can make it better... This is not going to be easy. I promise you that it won't. In the next few months life will not get any easier. It only gets harder from here. As you walk through the valley of the shadow of death take a look at your life and realize there's everything to lose in this war. Everything that you have worked so hard to build over so many years. Gone in an instant. Recently, we have lost a battle. In order to win the war we must ban together. Even if we lose the war, together we have a chance for survival. Why are we so blind that we cannot see the ones we hurt are the ones that we have that will pull us out of the tough spots and be there for the good times? Out of the smoke of the arms we fight so fight gallantly with we will remember that wars come and go but we, the soldiers , will stay eternal...

Evidentally the definition of true, genuine friendship has been lost to time as we know it. That is sad, truly it is. I am actually sorry to know that fact. A real friend wouldn't taunt you on to doing something stupid, a real friend, although blunt, will tell you the truth, not what you want to hear. Obviously the definition of a friend has been skewed here today. I am deeply sorry for that. If you do not want to be friends just say it and I'll leave you alone. But instead you claim that you do, time and time again, just for me to end up rejected. A real friend is not one who will agree with everything you say all of the time. A real friend is not made over a bottle. These are not real friendships. These are not the friends that will be by yourside through the dark and the light, through the good and the bad, through the fiery depths of hell and back. That is a friend, loyal and true.

This is the final countdown. In approximately 469 days we will, more than likely, never see each other again. That will be it. That will be the end of the road. It sucks to think about but that's it. We will go our seperate paths, to our seperate schools, to our seperate friends. You may say that you will always be with so-and-so but that is never how it truly works out. Now true, some will, but most won't. Especially not if the friendship is a false one. The actions that we take now will forever play in the future. Let us make wise ones at that. By doing so, we ensure more that the ones that we truly love will be protected through time. Let us make these last 469 days the best that we ever had, together, for the better, making good decisions.

I believe that is all that I have to say for the moment. I wish that each and every one of you reading this takes what I have had to say very seriously. I only write what I do because I care about each and every one of you, even if the feelings are not reciprocated. I do not want anything but the best for all of you. No more. No less. It would be a shame if one of you did something really stupid. So please, I beg all of you to hear my plea. Remember, this is the final countdown so, please, end this madness now for the betterment of the group, your friends, and, above all, yourselves.

Remember, champagne for our real friends, and real pain for our sham friends. Please comment.

Preston

Sorry For The Delay

Today's entry has been temporarily postponed. If you would to recieve a copy please send an e-mail to Kaminocloners@comcast.net and I will send you it shortly. Thank you for your time and I am deeply sorry for the delay.

Preston

From Out Of The Ashes

Forever Rising

Today was uneventful for the most part. Let's recap a little bit from yesterday.

Allison- Evidentally Spencer and I are pedophiles. That's pretty gay. She's pissed off at the truth. I'd say that I'm sorry about it but I'm not. The truth hurts, what can I say?

Paige- Awesome today. I'm glad our relationship is improving. Really I am. O, don't worry about the whole glasses thing. It's all cool. If some people don't like it tell them to go fuck themselves, they may just take you up on it.

Amber- Rise, my friend, rise. Seriously, Amber, I'm here for whatever you need. I totally understand. But I'm glad that you decided to comment like you told me you would. Thanks for that. Anyway, I'll see you tomorrow for that whole anatomy thing. That'll be fun I guess lol.

Isabel- Still want my money. Can't understand why you're mad at me. Little gay. Sorry lol.

Ericka- Can't really understand why you're pissed either. Tired of people being pissed at me. Nice Target bra though. Good choice, very supportive....adds shape. Like it.

Spencer- All about that German project. 122,000 and counting! I was thinking though last night. Which one of us is The Jackal and which is The Lion?

Josh Hall- You read my journal, good stuff. I'm really glad you're my friend. O and more than Friday nights will cost you more ;-) Just so you know.

The rest of the people get jipped cause they don't read it. So fuck 'em is what I say. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! lol

The phoenix continues to soar. Higher and higher. It's good stuff. Seriously though. Good fucking stuff. My grades have taken a turn around for the better for this grading period. You can't beat that. Well you fuckers can try but you won't succeed very well.

O, with all credit to Spencer, I'd like to do myself.

Preston- You've been through a lot. That I understand. You can be a dick sometimes because that's what you are sometimes lol. Not everybody cares what you have to say all of the time but you let it known anyway. You care too much all together. You try to live in tomorrow and not today. I guess by living in tomorrow you hope that maybe you can change something for somebody to help them and/or yourself when tomorrow actually comes. You manage to get into the center of everything even if it is not your place. You are pompus most of the time because that's who you want to be. I guess that might have been wrong. You act better than you really area because that is who you want to be. That's not a bad thing, that's just how it is. You tend to be blunt and not really care about the reprecussions at times. You'd make a good politician. You like to be in the center of the action, shake hands, and kiss babies. You'd be better at life as a whole if you cared abit more and actually paid attention. You're good at telling people what they want to hear, whether its the truth or not. Sometimes you manipulate people in order to change the course of time. What your motives are is not the point, you just do it. You're a funny man who's a little bit crazy. That's never a bad thing. You're a loyal friend when it comes down to the wire. You don't always play by the rules because you think that you should make them. You fight gallantly for the causes your believe in most, even if other people don't like them. But most of all, you're a damn good card player, and that's what matters in life.

Well I have to get ready to go for tonight. Don't all of you fuckers have too much fun.

Don't forget to comment.

Preston

Woke Up This Morning...

Gun

And got myself a gun...

That's what I'd like to do anyway. I'll take some shots later. Good song too if you've never heard it. Well, I did get a good grade on that test today. I also did well in English. So I guess everything is good. Friendships are a funny thing though. They have to involve equal amounts of effort from both side. They must involve total cooperation. Without this there is nothing. The friendship falls apart. It is worthless.

I got an interesting phone call at 3 AM this morning. I am happy that I got it but...yea.But it is time to start addressing people.

Allison- Doing a solid job pissing me off. I dunno. The whole Ryan-Paige Affair has gotten to me. I really do not think that it is in your jurisdiction to talk about Paige. So don't look for my support about the situation cause it's not happening. Don't think that I am letting my personal feelings get involved in this blog cause I'm not. You're being a bitch. I mean that in the friendliest way that it can be meant too I guess. Like I want to be friends with you and stuff, but you don't put any effort into it so I don't see why I should. Actually when I do I just get turned away. But whatever.

Paige- I know that we have not always been on the same page (no pun intended) but I have always wanted you to be happy. That is no different now, where or not it is with Ryan or not. Fuck Allison, go for it. Not that you need me to tell you that. But you have my full support. I hope one day we could be better friends than we are now but I guess that'll all come in due time. Best of luck though.

Amber- Although I do not agree with what you are about to do this coming weekend, I understand why it is in which you are. That is why I am not putting a lot of pressure on you. Just don't do anything stupid. Cause you're my friend and all. So that is all I ask.

Isabel- Same kind of goes for you. But you owe me money and I want it back. That's probably the most important thing. lol sorry but it is.

Spencer- The more I think about it the whole lawyer thing will work out well. Glad that you and I are abstaining. More power to us, I guess. lol I am very happy that we're friends. I know I've mentioned this once before in here but I'll mention it again. We've been friends since before I can remember. I really don't see anything happening to that and that's definately not a bad thing.

Ericka- You don't get anything, sorry.

Nathan- You fat fuck! Get the fuck off my back! I am sorry that you are disappointed in yourself for sending me those pictures but denying that it ever happened won't make it true. I will kick your ass any day of the week. You fat fuck! How can you even say that you'll beat me up? That's just crazy.

Barbie- There was a time when we were far from being the type of friends we are now... I don't know exactly what happened to that but I don't think we could ever abtain that. Not that you'd want to either. So again, as I said before, it takes two.

Josh- I am very happy for you and Barbie, I really am. We've had tons of fun together over the years and I see plenty more fun times to come for all of us, if most of us would just get along...lol

David- David, I don't think I've ever had a complaint about you. Like not even a little one. Ever. That's kind of strange but whatever. It's all cool. Keep up the good work, I guess.

Kevin- lol the shoe. That's all I got lol

Last but not even close to being least

Josh- Don't worry about anything. It's all cool. You're right though, we'll hang. I'll try to get the fat fuck off your back for a bit. He's chewing my ass right now. lol whatever. Like I said, it's all cool.

Well, that's all for tonight. Have a good night fuckers!

Preston

Basket Case

That about sums it up right now. People are being really gay lately. I have to find new friends.

I took my math test today. I think I did really well. That's good. It balances out my failure on the last test.

I'm trying to figure out where I'm going to college.

That's about all I have at the moment.

Preston

Everything or Nothing

Sick

All right, so that is not exactly what I looked like today.... Yes, it is true, I stayed home sick today. Was a faking? Partly, yes. I really didn't feel the best but I probably could have made it if I really wanted to. What did I do today? Absolutely nothing. I played video games, got beat at Euchre a few times, thought about some stuff, ate, and slept.

The title of this post is nice because I am in a dilemma. The whole paper thing... I dunno. It's basically everything or nothing.

That's really all that I have for tonight. Upset that we lost the basket ball game.

Preston

I'll Be Back

The Terminator

That's what my Dad said to Ms. Nash on Friday. We discussed the situation today. He said that he told Ms. Nash that he was more than happy to take legal action against the school to get the failing grade overturned. I don't know what to do....I don't want to take the failing grade...maybe I can make a deal. Who knows. All I know is that some shit is going down. Ms. Nash did say that he was the best out of the three that she had talked to on Friday. So I guess that's a plus? lol but whatever.

I watched The Forgotten and The Notebook. The Forgotten was about as dumb as The Grudge. And The Notebook was just all right.

I also played some video games. Crimson Skies and Jedi Outcast were two of them. Pretty good games actually.

Ugh I have to do some homework. Perhaps I'll do it in the morning.

I'll talk to you guys later.

Preston

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