We've Reached It...

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D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

We've reached the point of no return.

"Past the point of no return
The final threshold
What warm unspoken secrets
Will we learn
beyond the point of no return?"

Preston out

It's Coming...

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D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

We're almost there...

Preston out

Today...

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D-Day: May 7, 2005
H-Hour: 1630

Today will be a day long remembered....

Today will be interesting...

Preston out

Happy Birthday!!!

Today is the day of many happenings in history. The Kentucky Derby is today. The Nazis surrendered to the Allies today. The French lost Ino-China to the Vietnamese. Today is prom. But something more important happened today 17 years ago.

Spencer Brooks Patterson was born onto this forsaken planet we called earth. What could be more important than that in history?

Happy Birthday, Patti. I hope it's one of the best of many to come.

Preston out

Tired of it...

Tired of the bitchin'. That's all I hear anymore. I've actually had a pretty good week when all is said and done. Tired of the constant complaining. Tired of nothing being good enough anymore. Just stop and be happy with what you have people. Some people are way too fucking happy to get out of here. I admit that I want to get out of here too but Christ people, think about the feelings of others. We all knew that we'd have to split eventually, it was inevitable. Just don't tread on other people's feelings because you are being selfish and want to leave everybody behind. It could be worse and it really isn't that bad. So shut the fuck up people cause you're going to miss 'em when you're gone.

Preston out

Would You Like To Take A Survey...

YOU...

:x: name: Patillo, Preston James
:x: piercings: none
:x: tattoos: none
:x: height: 5 feet 9 inches
:x: hair color: dark brown
:x: age: 16
:x: birthday: 1988, June 2
:x: status: single but looking
:x: school: Mishawaka High School
:x: eye color: dark brown, possibly black

LAST...

:x: movie you rented: Saw
:x: movie you bought: Saw
:x: song you listened to: Approaching the Battle
:x: song stuck in your head:Ghost of You Good Charlotte
:x: cd you bought: Phantom of the Opera
:x: cd you listened to: See above
:x: last person you called: Patti
:x: person that's called you: My mom
:x: person you've hugged: Cindy
:x: person you've kissed: I don't remember
:x: person you've fought with: A girl about me not being good enough at something at some time for some reason or another
:x: person you complimented: Amber
:x: tv show you've watched: Revelations

Do...

:x: you wish you could live somewhere else:Of course I do. But i don't know where to go
:x: you believe in online dating: no, it's too impersonal
:x: others find you attractive: i hope so
:x: you want more piercings: no, I'm happy with none
:x: you write in cursive or print: print
:x: you carry donor card: yes, i won't need them if I'm dead
:x: believe in long distance relationships: yes, if the couple is strong enough
:x: using someone: hmm...at a time I did but now it's wrong
:x: believe in killing people: depends on the situation; I wouldn't have a problem and I wouldn't look back.
:x: believe in teenage smoking: no,that's gross
:x: believe in driving drunk: no, that's stupid but I guess if you're already drunk you're past the stupidity part
:x: believe in gay/lesbian relationship: yes, I don't judge but keep it away from me
:x: you watch soap operas: no

FAVORITE...

:x: food: cheeseburgers or spagehtti
:x: song: don't have one but if I had to pick right now it'd be Ghost of You
:x: things to do: write
:x: things to talk about: I'll talk about just about anything with anyone but politics, business, and movies are my favs
:x: sports: I don't play any but if I had to pick one to watch it'd be football
:x: drink: Grape Juice
:x: movie: A Beautiful Mind
:x: X-men: Professor X; he's a beast
:x: saying: It's all politics and policy until somebody gets shot in the head.
:x: disney movie: The Lion King or Beauty and the Beast
:x: scent: Vanilla
:x: nickname: PJ; meat head; Presty
:x: guy name: Augustus
:x: girl name: Ana
:x: eye color: blue
:x: flower: roses
:x: class: every class has its ups and downs

HAVE YOU...

:x: ever cried over a guy: No
:x: ever lied to someone: I could say no but that would be a lie
:x: ever been in a fist fight: yes
:x: ever been arrested: no
:x: ever eaten frog legs: thought about it

NUMBER...

:x: of times I have been in love: Twice
:x: of times I have had my heart broken: Once
:x: of hearts I have broken: I wouldn't know
:x: of things in my past that I regret: one

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

:x: pretty: I perfer the word "handsome"
:x: funny: you know it
:x: hot: I'm kind of warm right now, I'm thinking about changing or opening the windows
:x: friendly: can be your best or worst friend; there is no in between
:x: ugly: never
:x: lovable: hope so but doesn't seem like it
:x: pessimistic: rarely
:x: optimistic: always
:x: caring: too much
:x: sweet: when I try
:x: dorky: sometimes
:x: stubborn: more than I should be
:x: random: not as much as I should be

RANDOM...

:x: spell your first name back wards: notserp
:x: the story behind your user name: my all time favorite star wars character is the Clonetrooper. The clone DNA was taken from a bounty hunter named Jango Fett after being recruited by Darth Tyranus (Count Dooku). The cloners choosen were on Kamino. Hence my sn.
:x: are you straight: you better belive it
:x: where do you live: mishawaka
:x: numbers in your cell phone: one
:x: shampoo: any but they have to be the same scent
:x: soap: any

DESCRIBE YOUR...

:x: wallet: perfect square made of fake leather
:x: hairbrush: don't use one
:x: toothbrush: blue
:x: jewelery worn daily: necklace with an emblem of a phoenix and an owl
:x: coffee cup: black works
:x: sunglasses: don't wear any
:x: shoes: blue vans
:x: CD(s) in stereo right now: six; though the cd player doesn't work
:x: what you are wearing now: jeans and a casino tshirt
:x: hair: brown; longer than I'd like it

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)...

:x: in my mouth: my tongue
:x: in my head: the song I'm listening to
:x: wishing: That i could get a break outta this place...
:x: after this: next class
:x: talking to: ericka about the test
:x: if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: Everybody knows who is at the top of my hitlist, it should be obvious why once you know who it is.
:x: person you wish you could see right now: her
:x: is next to you: ericka
:x: something you're looking forward to in this upcoming month: STAR WARS
:x: something (s) that you are deathly afraid of: Not being in control or not knowing the outcome
:x: do you like candles: if they smell good
:x: do you like incense: see above answer
:x: do you believe in forgiveness: Always; karma baby
:x: do you believe in God: scared shitless about what would happen if I didn't
:x: who is your worst enemy: i don't have one
:x: what is the latest/longest you've ever stayed up: 48 hours

LOVE...

:x: do you believe in love: yes
:x: do you believe in soul mates: you bet
:x: do you believe in love at first sight: no
:x: last crush: I can't say because that would be my current crush who's name is owaltcr (good like trying to decode that one)
:x: best make-out music: depends on the mood
:x: best way to propose/be proposed to: Out of town in front of a ton of people to declare your love for all to see
:x: where do you want to go on your honey moon: Europe
:x: dream spouse: I don't want to say
:x: dream house: The White House
:x: kids: 3; two boys and a girl

That was fun. All wuestions that would imply that I am gay or that repeated have been ommited.

Preston out

Today was good...

Today was a really good day and those don't come very often. I went to school as always. I was supposed to talk to Mrs. B about my test but she decided it would be cool not to show up. During this time I approved the rules for the Euchre Tourney Monday. German was pretty gay because we had to do book work but then I got a sticker so that made up for it. U.S. History was awesome because I already know everything that is going on. There is little to no learning. And to top it off Mr. Cannoot is a fan of 24. Who would have thought. But it is cool either way. Then Mrs. Flora was having a good day and I got a good grade on my test so that was cool. Then in Biology, Mr. Man had us dissect bull frogs. They are huge and wet.

After that I came home and took a nap. After that I played some video games. Then I went outside to practice my lightsaber skills. Ter-Ca Camis threatened me to a duel but I beat him but then somehting interesting happened.

I practice outside with a lightsaber in my hand and another laying in the ground. After I beat Ter-Ca Camis an unknown Jedi approached me and challenged me to a duel. I could not help myself. We fought faster and harder than I ever had fought. Well timed punches and kicks were thrown. He was powerful, no doubt. I used the Force and obtained the other lightsaber. Even with wielding two lightsabers he still managed to parry my every attack. He then kicked me in the face forcing me to drop the lightsaber in my left hand. Then the best thing ever happened. We fought faster and harder. I blocked his every attack. Then I unleashed a series of attacks that could have only been guided by the Force. I thrusted my saber towards the Jedi in my rage. Then I thrusted upwards, cutting off his hand and sending his ignited saber into the air. I caught the saber as the Jedi fell to his knees. Then I sliced his head off and his corpse fell to the ground. The Force is with me.

I am still struggling with my crush. I do not know what to do or what direction to take. The ball is in her court now...

Preston out

My Name Is Federal Agent Jack Bauer...

Last night's episode of 24 proved why Jack Bauer is my hero. He had a witness, crucial to the finding of one of the most devistating nuclear bomb in the arsenal of the United States, who had been shot. His girlfriend's ex-husband was in the operating room. The doctor refused to operate on the witness. Jack drew his gun and forced the surgeon to work on his witness. Through his girlfriend's pleas, Jack insisted that he was doing his job. Her ex-husband died. "He knows what needs to be done in order to successfully accomplish his objectives and will stop at nothing to do it."

And These Are The Longest Days Of My Life.

My inspiration is Jack Bauer. Bauer was born in one thousand nine hundred sixty-five in Santa Monica, California. He graduated with a Bachelor’s degree in English literature from the University of California: Los Angeles. He also has a Master’s degree in Criminology and Law from the University of California: Berkley. He is a former Los Angeles Police Department SWAT Team member and a former member of the United States Army’s elite Delta Force. He has earned a Purple Heart and a Silver Star for his services to his country. He currently works for the Defense Department under the Secretary of Defense. He was fired from his last job at the Counter Terrorist Unit: Los Angeles being the Director of Field Operations. During his time at the Counter Terrorist Unit he has successfully halted two presidential assassinations, two nuclear bombs, and a biological viral attack. He is a widower, after his co-worker, Nina Myers, a mole in the agency, murdered his wife, Teri Bauer, while trying to capture after her cover was blown. Three years later Jack avenged the death of his wife by emptying a clip from his Sig Sauer P226 two tone into her chest. He also has a daughter, Kimberly Bauer, who lives in Santa Monica, California with her boyfriend, Chase Edmunds. Jack has been described as an uncompromising patriot for his country. That patriotism is always questioned by his co-workers because of his unorthodox tactics. Bauer has devoted his life to his job serving his country. He makes the ultimate sacrifices necessary to protect this country, such as the death of his wife and becoming addicted to heroine. He knows what needs to be done in order to successfully accomplish his objectives and will stop at nothing to do it. Jack Bauer shows immense courage and bravery in the line of duty and his service record to this country proves it. This is why Jack Bauer is my inspiration. Jack Bauer: the man, the husband, the father, the hero.

Preston Out

Fire Drill Mania

Today was all right. I had this math test that was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Then we had the three fire drills. I know where to go if we actually have an emergency. In Anatomy we didn't really do much. We traced out bodies. Amber traced mine and it was really big cause she messed up and I guess I don't have a neck. English was really really boring. That's all for now. I have to go to work.

Preston out

Ps. One day I will be great.

I Want More...

I have decided that I am not meant for this time period. Like at all. I am not supposed to be here. I should not have been born when I was. And I am starting to hate it.

Preston out

Ghost Of You...

I will wait until the end
When the pendralem will swing back
to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
next to me like its a grave
where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally together

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

So here I am pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living on these walls
I see my breathe in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm

wondering I'm wondering if its you that I fell if its you that I feel

haunting me forever

I have been
Searching for
Traces of
What we were
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all

and I'm not looking for
anything but us
anything but what we were
and I'm not asking for
any memories
I only want to know you're here

A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing of what we were at all
A ghost of you
is all that I have left
is all that I have left of you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
and nothing left of what we were at all.

Good Charlotte

My love for you is secret
I weep when we are apart
If I open up my heart
It would rip our friendship apart
So I'll keep my love a secret
A secret of the heart

I think she knows...

Preston out

Trip...

I am journeying to Ft. Wayne at the moment. I will be back later to night probably. Have fun while I am away. I will miss you all.

Preston out