Last Night Was Bliss

My mood has taken an absolute turn aroud.

My grades at school are constantly fluctuating. But I really don't care cause I know that I can pull them up to make an A for the semester. So whatever. I am more concerned about the election that I have entered in. The amount of money that I am going to spend on this endeavor is insane but its fine. I really hope that I win. I'm really nervous. Then there is this girl at school that I really like but like I don't know how to approach the situation. I think I got some help last night from somebody that I am going to pursue (Thanks). I'm probably going to ask her to the prom if all goes well. I hope it does. I'm nervous about that too.

Now last night was fun. David, April, Isabel, Josh, Spencer, and myself, ate at the very good Papa Vino's last night. Isabel, as always, was not carrying any cash so she made me pay for it. She better pay me back cause now I have 0 dollars. Whatever. Then we drove around cursing trying to figure out what we should do. We eventually went to Rose Park and drove around it really fast and taking snow banks in Josh's Jeep. After that we drove around some more and went to the Pope's Children's house to see them smooching. That pissed us off. Then last night when I got home I found out that Josh and Barbie went to make out at Hitch. That pissed me off even more because Josh specifically said that he couldn't come with us last night because he was "too tired." eff that. Whatever though, it was funner without him. Then we invited ourselves to Andy's again. We felt bad and tried to uninvite ourselves but that didn't work out so we went over. We played video games and then euchre. I think I like six person euchre better than four, not sure. But then we played poker. Now this is key because Andy's parents don't like poker. Kevin starts yelling about poker and better. Then when he gets up he knocks over the table and all of the chips go flying. Kevin is the rudest person I know. But whatever. The night was great. Then we went home and I went to bed.

That's all for now.

Preston

The Phoenix Forever Rises

That's the title of my online journal, you're right. Good job. I don't want to jinx anything that is happening right now so I have decided to take the time to explain the title.

The Phoenix is a mythical bird that is immortal that is very rare. It is said that its tears has the power to heal and its song has the power to sooth any that stand in its path. But the key in the Phoenix is not its powers to heal or sooth, but its power to be reborn. The Phoenix dies in a fiery waste into ashes. From these ashes the Phoenix rises up as a young bird, singing its song into the air. The Phoenix never dies completely. It is only reborn. Time and time again.

My life seems to be that of a phoenix. I will die off only to be reborn. Time and time again.

That's all for tonight. Perhaps more tomorrow.

Preston

As The World Turns...

It sucks being down when everybody else you know is down at the same time. It is very difficult getting any sort of sympathy or anybody to point you in the right direct. I am tired of being stupid. I am tired of getting spanked at life. I am tired of getting spanked at math. It really does suck but...

Things are sorta looking up. Still have not found a date to prom. So that's not part of it. I have added a few people that I might ask. I'll think about the list though. Anyway, what is making me happy is that I have decide to run. Run for what? That's right, I am going to run for the Presidency of Mishawaka High School. I probably won't win but that doesn't matter. As long as I fight the "good fight." That is all that matters in the long run. I know the election is still a little while away but I am preparing now. I hope I win.

Minimal fighting today. Actually I don't think there was any at the lunch table. That always makes things more enjoyable. I have cronic bad grades though. I really hate it when teachers tell you an answer and it turns out to be wrong. But what really gets me is that they will not count it right even if they told you that answer. That's bs big time. Whatever I don't care anymore. I can't wait to go to college. Like there's not point of being here anymore. The situation constantly remains idle. But like I said, things are looking up...

It is quite depressing to like a person that shows no interest in you at all. Like none what-so-ever. I just wish that I could find somebody.... I don't even want much but the norm. I want somebody loyal, honest, pretty....but most of all somebody who will love me. Is that really too much to ask? Is it? Then if so take me now for I will never want any less.

That's all for now.

Preston

Will It Ever End?

Today started like every other day. I woke up tired and depressed. Solid start, right? Thought so. Cell phone broke last night so that became priority to get fixed this morning. There were only a thousand people at the Verizon store though so that's gay. Anyway I had an interesting dream last night. I am going to keep it to myself however for now.

Talked to Allison today. She is probably one of my best friends. Wish she didn't push me to the side wanting better friends than I. (sigh) Anyway, we talked for a little bit about how both of our lives suck. I tried to tell her that her life didn't suck and that she was pretty. I don't think that she took anything that I said seriously though. I want Allison and I to become good friends but I don't think she wants that to happen or I don't think it is meant to happen, have yet to decide. I guess it really doesn't matter though. Just like when Allison and I used to be really good friends things were...happy. I could tell her anything and everything and her the same with me but I guess....I dunno. Allison is....well....I'll just leave it at that. Some of you already know what I'm going to say. Those of you who don't obviously don't deserve to know.

Still pretty depressed bout life. Figured out that I don't know anything today. That didn't help any. I thought about a great many things though. What life will be like after high school. Who my friends will be. What will happen even after that. It got overwhelming so I stopped.

Well I have to go do some homework or whatever.

Preston